What is THE HEART CODE Novel About?

The first in a novel series, THE HEART CODE explores the mysteries and truths of following one’s heart.

Full Cover of THE HEART CODE: Artist:Julie Costanzo

Based on ancient wisdom and modern-day science validating the existence of a separate intelligence residing in the heart; the story features a young woman struggling to find her true path in life.  Instinctively drawn to her Bohemian born grandmother’s heritage and belief in each heart carrying a personalized code for life’s choices, she is confused by her mother’s drive to eschew such nonsense and pursue security and safety by marrying into the richest family in town.  Set in the 1930′s in a small community outside Hartford, Connecticut, the story follows the lives of two families, intertwined by fate, and changed by the wise and wonderful Gamma, who shares her ancient history and philosophy with anyone who will listen . . . and it’s surprising who actually does!

The first ten chapters are available for review and comment.

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Author: Laura Matson Hahn         Cover Art by Miss Julie Costanzo.

Chapter One: BIRCH BARK HAT

BIRCH BARK HAT

May 27, 1920

Squatting on the crescent of rock jutting out from the creek’s edge, six-year-old Celeste released onto it her bundle of forest treasure while staring into the soft flowing gray-green water. Sniffing deeply, her nose filled with the scent of mud and new green as she wiggled her toes inside her shoes and looked up at grandmother with hopeful eyes. “May I today, Gamma?” she asked.

Glancing at the houses on the hillcrest overlooking the creek, Gamma winced. News traveled fast in small towns. No doubt those glassy eyes would report them on the grassy slope, shoeless, sockless, skirts pulled up to their knees, splashing their feet, prompting another lecture from Myrtle on dangers to her daughter’s health. But none of that had ever stopped Gamma before, so she wrinkled her nose like a rabbit and nodded. Celeste’s laugh gurgled in harmony with the stream as she unlaced her ankle-high shoes, pulled off her socks, rolled her canvas skirt above her knees and tiptoed into the creek, sucking small breaths at every step.

“Too cold?” Gamma asked, tucking her hem into her waistband.

“Oh, noooo,” Celeste said, biting her lower lip as Gamma stepped in.

“Ouff! Is freezing! You make me a joke!”

Squealing, Celeste clutched her sides, teetering in the water.

“You pixie! Quick now, hand me the bark.”

Still giggling, Celeste passed her the long strip of birch bark they’d found on their walk, and watched Gamma submerge it in the water, gently working the edges with her fingers, pulling and bending the bark to soften it. Lulled by the babbling water tumbling over the rock clusters, Celeste swayed to its melody.

“But in truth, I confess,” Gamma broke the reverie as she lifted the bark out of the water, shaking off the drips: “To grandmamma, I make a joke, too.”

Celeste cocked her head. “Here?”

“Ne. In Bohemia, where we live. Come close now. I measure.”

Scooting over a rock, Celeste stood still as Gamma circled the bark around her head and marked her size with a small tear. “But how will it stick?” she asked as they settled on the embankment.

“Notches.” Gamma set the bark on her lap and adjusted her eyeglasses. “Six notches of The Bohemian Way.”

“Bo-MEEN-he-ahhhn,” Celeste slowly ventured, hissing with the water.

“Bo-HE-me-ahn,” Gamma corrected, positioning her fingers on the papery bark so Celeste could see. “One notch for each Way,” she said and recited them with each tear. “Truth, Courage, Openness, Curiosity, Creativity, Love.” She then offered the bark to Celeste. “Now you. Six notches on other side.”

Drying her hands on her canvas jacket, Celeste studied Gamma’s work before cautiously making her first tear.”

“Good,” Gamma nodded. “First for Truth, which no one can know but you.”

Celeste blinked a few times before making the second tear.

“Second for Courage, to follow your heart whispers.”

Tentatively nodding, Celeste made her next tear.

“Third for Openness, to embrace what come your way.”

Feeling warmth in her chest, Celeste made two tears in quick succession, but Gamma kept up with her.

“Fourth for Curiosity of what beckons; and fifth for Creativity in all you do.”

Celeste poised her fingers to make the last tear, feeling the roughness of the bark on her fingertips and paused, her eyes twinkling. “Sixth for Love?”

Gamma nodded, her fingers fanning down the row of notches. “Yah, sixth for Love; first of yourself, from inside to out. These are the roots of our Bohemian Way, in your bark hat for always remembering.” She then showed Celeste how to interlock the notches, fitting the band of bark to her head perfectly. “Now add a bit of fluff,” Gamma pointed to the collection of forest treasures on the rock. “And you make fine Bohemian Hat of ancient time.”

Sliding off the bank, Celeste stood in the water surveying her cache on the quarter moon rock: a long vine, a few squiggly-edged leaves, three feathers from the geese who visit the creek, moss from the north side of a tree, and their prize: a translucent snakeskin, which they’d almost missed in the slant of afternoon sun. Carefully unhooking the notches, Celeste laid the bark flat, grabbed a fat, pointed stick and began boring holes along its edge. “Is this how you made clothes in Bohemia?” she asked.

Gamma looked at her skirt and laughed. “With bark? Ne. We use fabric and thread, same like here.” In her mind’s eye she saw herself as a girl, furiously working her needle in the dim glow of hearth and oil lamp, days before her departure to America. “But I was the sewing machine,” she said, looking at her worn hands. “These fingers.”

“Me too,” Celeste added, stripping the leaves off a vine and holding it up. “And this is my thread! Like Bohemian of ancient times!”

“Like Bohemian.” Gamma trailed off as her mind flooded with images of the family she’d left behind so many years ago in the mountains beyond Prague. When she was too young to realize what she was trading away. When all she wanted was to flee the pain her carelessness had caused. Recalling the row of ancient stone shelters built on the ravine’s crest with a sweet water creek at its bottom, her crystalline eyes misted, making Celeste and the creek a lovely blur. How odd to find herself so far from home beside a similar creek with a blue-eyed granddaughter of her own.

“But what is a Bohemian?” Celeste asked.

Startled, Gamma shook herself awake. Here it was, finally, the question she’d been hoping to hear and waiting to answer. She cleared her throat. “A Bohemian is born in the country of Bohemia, like me.”

“Near New York?” It was the only place Celeste knew other than Connecticut.

“Ne, ne. Much more far. Across ocean,” Gamma said, then sighed deeply. “But last year, after big war, they change our name. To Czechoslovakia. But for me is always Bohemia, home of the Boii, ancestors of our blood.”

Celeste blinked. She didn’t understand what Gamma had said, but she liked the tone of her voice; her storytelling voice when they snuggled up close at bedtime. “What’s an an-sess-tor?” she asked, weaving the vine through the holes in the bark.

As the afternoon sun melted in the treetops, casting long shadows across the hillside, Gamma shifted her hips. “Olden family of long ago time.”

“Who’s my olden family?” Celeste picked up the snakeskin.

“The same as me, Boii Celts.”

“Boy kelp?”

Gamma laughed. “T, not P – Celt. Who live east of Europe …”

Celeste brightened. “Like Ede! She was born in Italy. That’s in Europe! She showed us on the school map.”

Gamma nodded. “Yah, Italy is Europe, but Celts first live more north and east, near Mountains Caucasus. My grandfather’s stories tell of the long travel they make to find a new home, in land we call Bohemia …”

“Like when you and Mama and Papa moved from New York?”

“Poofh,” Gamma blew the air. “If only so easy. Our ancestors have much harder, more dangerous journey. You like to hear?”

Widening her blue eyes, Celeste nodded as she carefully slipped the edge of the snakeskin under the threaded vine while listening to Gamma’s story of the Boii Celts’ journey through deserts, around mountains and across snowy steppes until they came to a wide basin of beautiful land with bounteous plants, animals, rivers and forests.

“Bohemia?” Celeste deduced.

“Yah. Home of the Boii.”

Holding up a feather, Celeste twirled it near her nose. It smelled wild. “What should I do with this?”

“How you like? Indian princess?”

Celeste smiled, and Gamma showed her where to bore the holes to hold it.

“But Gamma, where did they live? In a house like ours, or castle?”

“Humph. First caves, I think.”

Celeste’s mouth dropped open. “Caves? With spiders and bugs?”

Gamma shrugged. “Not so bad, out of wind and rain, eh? And what are castles? Big caves built by men.”

Celeste thought of the castle in her storybook. “So did they build a castle?

“In time. But first a house with sticks, stone, mud and grass for roof.”

“Grass for roof?!” Celeste peeled in laughter.

“Yah. What the land give, they use. No hardware store like your Papa’s to buy things. From scratch they make what they need, just like your hat.”

“Just like my hat.” Celeste repeated. “What should I do next?”

Leaning into the creek, Gamma drew a handful of musty-smelling mud. “Mud-glue for sticking,” she said and plopped it on the rock, swirling it with her fingers.

Celeste wrinkled her nose at the musty smell and picked up a stick to stir it. “But Gamma, with no stores, what did they eat?”

“What earth provide: animal meat, goat milk and cheese, plants from forest and field. Ah! Look!” Gamma pointed to a cluster of green across the creek. “The leaves, bouncing on the water … is watercress. Grew also in my creek. Quick now, get us some.”

Yanking up her skirt, Celeste splashed to the bobbing cascade of small, round, tender greens, easily ripped a handful from the mound and hopped back.

Inhaling its fresh, woody smell, Gamma nibbled a few leaves. “Mmmmm, spring smell. Try some, my little Bohemian.”

Sniffing, Celeste gave it a lick but wrinkled her nose. “I don’t like it.”

“Augh, when I your age, me neither. But every day I must gather for supper.”

With the tangle of stems still in hand, Celeste turned back to her rock table and stretched out the watercress in a long string, tucking it around the snakeskin. “I love making birch hats,” she murmured.

“Is in your blood.”

“Making hats?”

“Making beautiful things. Making art. From everything, Bohemians make art.”

Celeste’s face opened wide. “Like what?”

“Beads, sculptures, paintings, cloth, with bright colors ground from stones and crushed flowers. And carved designs on the boats, tools, bowls. Everything they see and touch, they make more beauty, more art.”

Celeste had stopped working on her hat to watch her grandmother speak. She liked how Gamma’s eyes were sparkling. Then she sighed quietly, “I like Bohemia. Will you take me?”

“Oh yes, dítě. Is my great pleasure.”

“When?”

“Your Papa I took at sixteen.”

Celeste’s eyes clouded. Sixteen seemed forever away.

Gamma laughed. “Seems long, but I have many pillow stories to tell before we go.”

Celeste’s expression popped, remembering the strange and magical images on Gamma’s needlepoint pillows. “Like the singing goat, pooping little green hearts?”

“Yah, yah … goat, green hearts and more.” Gamma lifted her arms overhead. “Like ancient ancestors, I call Oghma, Bohemian god of wisdom, for guidance to tell history, and the secret of heart’s content.”

Having finished mud-gluing the leaves on her hat, Celeste leaned down, washed her fingertips and then sniffed them, making sure the mustiness was gone. “What’s heart’s content?” She asked.

Gamma leaned forward and drew a circle around Celeste’s chest. “Inside your heart are special clues to find the life meant just for you. But it speaks not in words, so you must listen well to understand its meaning. And when you do, you will have the dearest friend to help find your deepest truth, from inside to out, and the quiet happiness of a life fulfilled. This is heart’s content. This is Bohemian Way.”

Celeste looked up at the pinkish clouds and deepening blue sky, trying to understand. Then she picked up her decorated hat and laid it on Gamma’s lap.

“This is my heart’s content,” she said softly.

“The birch hat?”

“Making it,” she said, admiring the feathers, leaves, snakeskin and vine.

“Ah, making it! In you, the Bohemian blood runs deep.”

Sitting together, they silently admired the hat and each other as the sky’s pink faded to soft gray. Looking up, Gamma tapped Celeste’s legs.

“Come now, put on shoes. Time to wear your hat home proud.”

~

Vigilantly watching from her kitchen window as the sun set, Myrtle let out a big sigh when she saw Gamma and Celeste finally appear on the crest of the hill. Squinting in the waning light, she scrutinized their ambling figures and asked aloud: “What in heaven’s name is on her head?”

Martin rose from the kitchen table and peered beyond his wife, seeing his mother and daughter heading toward the house. He knew instantly. “A bark hat. Made one as a boy.”

Myrtle scoffed. “Where could you find bark on the docks of New York?”

Pulling his ear, Martin shook his head. “Every now and again Mother would take me to the country. When I was around Celeste’s age, we found a creek and made a bark hat together. Took all day.” Martin reached for a glass off the window sill and drew water from the kitchen tap. “She showed me how to curl the bark as we stood in the creek.” He gently inhaled, sucking air through his teeth, still able to smell the mix of grass, mud and bark from that day. “I loved that hat, but it got crushed on the trolley ride home. Never made another.” Keeping time with the jaunty step of his daughter as she crossed the grass toward the house, he recited: “Truth, Courage, Openness, Curiosity, Creativity, Love.” Sighing deeply, he returned to the kitchen table and his opened newspaper.

~

“So did they live there forever?”  Celeste swung her grandmother’s arm.

“Who”

“Our ancestors, the Bohemians.”

“For long, long time there, until one day some strangers – warriors – attack them.”

“Meanies!” Celeste cried, thinking of the boy in kindergarten who smushed her painting.

“Big meanies! Many of our ancestors run far away, to other countries. But some stay, hiding in mountain until warriors leave and is safe again. That is our family story, which I tell another day.”

Holding on to her hat, Celeste carefully climbed the porch steps and ran into the kitchen, beaming. “Mama, Papa, look what we made today! A birch bark hat!”

Pushing aside his paper, Martin held out his arms, lifting his daughter to his lap. “Ah, you lucky girl. A Bohemian birch bark hat!” Closely examining her work, he named each treasure she’d used. “What a fine, fine job you’ve done, my dearest Celeste. Quite a talent you’ve got,” and he kissed her cheek with a loud smack.

Giggling, Celeste slid off his lap and crossed to her mother at the stove. “And Gamma said she’ll tell me all her story pillows and take me to Bohemia, when I’m older.”

Smiling, Myrtle cooed in return. “Very nice, I’m sure, but you’d best go wash for supper. Martin, would you help her, please?”

As Celeste scooted off hand-in-hand with her father, Myrtle’s smile disappeared. Turning to her cooking pots, she vigorously stirred the soup, banging the wooden spoon against the sides. Stopping abruptly, she faced the table, “I won’t have it,” she spurted at Gamma, waving her spoon, “Filling my child’s ears with your Bohemian nonsense. She’s a modern girl in modern times who won’t be needing any silly past, so I’ll thank you not to talk about it, ever again.”

Gamma’s jaw dropped then promptly shut. Glancing down the hall to make sure Martin and Celeste were not returning, she steeled her eyes at her daughter-in-law. “What you say, Myrtle? Celeste should have no past? You erase your family and now her father’s, too? So she come from nothing? No heritage? No ancestors? No stories for learning?”

“Ancestors? Ancestors!” Myrtle retorted, waving her spoon erratically. “What difference did they make to me? Vile memories I spit on. She don’t need that blackness, and I’ll not have it rob her chance for a better life – better than yours or mine. Better than a shopkeeper’s wife. She’s my daughter, and I say: speak no more Bohemian bile.”

Pushing herself from the table, face empty of emotion, Gamma stepped toward Myrtle. “I cannot do what you ask. Your child she is, but Martin’s, too. In their blood is history, beauty, knowledge and heritage that long survives on earth. As mother, is your right to raise her as you want. But grandmother has obligation, too.”

Myrtle coiled for a fresh retort, but Gamma raised her hand for silence. “Between you and me, Myrtle, I know is not right. Is not easy, living under my roof all your married life; but is the fate of our hearts, which we can fight or make right. Celeste is yours to raise, but in other way, she’s mine. So this promise I make: Your wish for her I will not undo, but my heart demand I answer true any questions she may ask.”

The slight arch of Gamma’s eyebrow caused Myrtle to blanch and tightly purse her lips. Squeezing the spoon in her hand, she opened her mouth to reply but turned back to the stove as the bathroom door banged and Martin and Celeste returned from washing their hands.

¤

Chapter Two: SIXTEEN

SIXTEEN

May 27, 1930

Leaning on her broom, Myrtle peered down the tree-lined street, watching Celeste meander across the Green, school satchel swinging, nose in the air, catching the sweet scent of linden flower now perfuming the town. “There she is,” Myrtle said loud enough for her neighbor’s ears. “There’s my beautiful daughter.”

Mrs. Harris stopped her sweeping, wiped her hands on her apron and squinted in the same direction. “Oh my, yes, hasn’t she blossomed over the winter!”

Myrtle waved her arms to catch Celeste’s eye. “Sixteen and nearly grown. Can you imagine? Where do the years go?”

Mrs. Harris shook her head. “Soon married with a brood of her own, and you a grandmother – ha ha! Any good prospects?”

“A few,” Myrtle coyly twisted her head. “But we’ll see what summer brings.”

A block away, Celeste waved and hollered: “Mama, I’ll be at church for choir.”

Myrtle nodded and ducked her head, returning to sweeping her walk. No longer interested in chatting, she wanted only to imagine the upcoming months, when her hopes and plans would finally converge. Never before had her dreams been so close to fulfillment. After years of false starts, slogging through the lower ranks of Gladdenbury’s social fabric, she’d finally secured invitations to a selection of coveted summer parties that would place Celeste among the town’s best set and win the most desired prize: an invitation to the Women’s Club Fall Cotillion, where social merit was confirmed and rewarded with a proper introduction.

The Cotillion, Myrtle mused, sweeping harder. Where debutantes were presented and lifelong alliances forged. And, if the fates were kind, her own ascent up society’s ladder, which had thus far eluded her anxious grasp. Although the season was weeks away, she could already smell the heady bloom of roses at the Conner’s June soiree, feel the jazzy sway of the Club’s midsummer dance and delight in the riot of hats at the August regatta. But the Cotillion! Ah the Cotillion. If this one wish were granted, she would ask for nothing more. Her blood rushed at the thought of her daughter’s prospects, so shiny, so bright, so far from her own tattered childhood. Everything she’d schemed for decades was now unfolding, and she couldn’t wait for the festivities to begin.

“Excuse please, Myrtle?”

Myrtle’s head jerked up at the old-country voice of Gamma on the front porch.

“I like to make some discussion with you. Please, you come soon?”

Myrtle forced a smile for Mrs. Harris’s nosey eyes and nodded. Gamma re-entered the house, and Myrtle muttered, “Yes, your majesty,” giving each step a hard sweep as she climbed the stoop. Leaving the broom by the door, she crossed through the parlor into the glass-walled conservatory where Gamma held court. The woody-green smell of the many plants assaulted her nose, along with a large fern frond. Roughly pushing it aside, she heard a flutter of wings retreating from the six outdoor feeders and saw Gamma sitting on the wrought iron love seat, as she often did, calmly needle pointing. “I’ve got a lot to do today. What do you want?” she asked, trying to keep the irritation out of her voice.

Gamma’s hands briefly stopped moving. “I have idea, for your agreement, something for Celeste; a promise made long ago, but now is right time, I think. Sit.”

Myrtle perched on the iron chair across from Gamma, wincing slightly at its cool hardness. “Go on then. Supper won’t start itself.”

Gamma cleared her throat. “Ten year ago, I promise to show Celeste our roots, in Bohemia. This summer I like to take her, as I am well enough and she 16 – same as her father was.”

Myrtle’s entire body flushed. “Roots? What are you talking about? No old roots are going to tangle my girl’s shining future!” She couldn’t believe her ears nor stop her rushing mind. “You want to dismiss all my hard work for this summer’s plans? For some crusty old roots? What have they to do with our lives today? With her life and future?

Myrtle’s upset exploded well beyond her sense of reason. But having broken with her own past long ago, she knew of what she spoke. The first of too many children, she’d cut her teeth on want for something better, something more, and learned young how to snatch it, like apples off a cart. What else could she do? With a worthless father and haggard mother, living in the stench of New York City’s Five Corners, polluted by fetid factories and savage people, she had no one to protect her from life’s wretchedness. It exhausted and shamed her to recall any of it, but she’d vowed to escape her mother’s washerwoman fate, and finally did, opting  to roam the streets, searching for a smidgen of hope – when she spied young Master Howe, striding confidently in spats and spit-shine boots, posting notices for free tutoring. Fresh from college and eager to help those less fortunate, he was the sole heir to a small chain of hardware stores. From the moment Myrtle saw his softly tilted, handsome face and honest eyes, she recognized a means to a better tier of life where her old roots could be severed and her warehouse of want might be satisfied.

Clutching the cold, iron chair arm, Myrtle furiously shook her head. “No! You’ll not steal my daughter’s future. Not when it’s her time to rise.”

Gamma had anticipated such a response. “Hers – or yours, Myrtle?” she asked. “Celeste’s future include her past. She has right to know from where she come.”

“That makes no difference,” Myrtle sputtered. “This is where she was born, not Bohemia or Ireland or some filthy New York alley. This is what she knows, and all she needs to know, for the life she was born to live, with people more like her than we’ll ever be. Certainly more than backwoods strangers across the ocean.”

Myrtle finished with a huff, still full of fury. From her first day in Gladdenbury she’d kept a gloved finger in the social pie, setting her sights on the doyenne with five sons a few blocks away. The time had finally come to reap what she’d carefully sown, to claim her dream, if only as mother of the most promising young woman about to enter the town’s highest echelon. “No, Gamma, I won’t abide your wish. It’s been arranged. It’s … all … been … arranged, and I won’t let anything change it. You can’t do that to …  to … her. Not after all we’ve been through.”

Gamma slowly wagged her head. “We? Did Celeste help make this choice?”

“She’s my daughter,” Myrtle shot back, “and I know what she needs,” she popped up, spinning on her heel. “And I’ll not have you filling her head with your Bohemian religion.”

Ne!” Gamma’s raised voice arrested Myrtle’s departure. “Is not religion. Is philosophy and history and art in the blood of her veins.”

Myrtle jutted her chin “So you claim. But what does Martin say?”

Gamma blinked calmly. This, too, she expected. “I ask your blessing first.”

“Well, I’ll not give it. And let’s just see what he has to say.” Myrtle flicked her skirt as she turned to leave.

Gamma called after her. “What of Celeste’s dreams and desires? Speak of those?”

Grasping the overhanging frond, her back to the old woman, Myrtle squeezed the foliage tight. “What can a child know at such an age?”

Gamma narrowed her eyes. “Much as you – when first you see my son.”

Myrtle swiveled and locked eyes with Gamma, standing in mute defiance. After a long moment, Gamma spoke slowly.

“She must know her own heart voice or have no compass to find her truth, for no one walks the same path.”

“Poppycock!” Myrtle released the frond, ducked under the leaves and stomped out, untying her apron as she strode.

Gamma sank onto her chair. “Bolení hlavy,” she sighed, listening to her daughter-in-law pound across the parlor, rip open the coat closet, slam the glove box and bang the front door behind her. Through the conservatory’s glass walls, she watched Myrtle flounce down the road toward town and their hardware store, hat bouncing with each step. Gamma shook her head. “Another headache,” she translated for the birds re-clustering around the feeders. She knew Myrtle would badger Martin until he agreed to whatever his wife demanded, if only to regain peace. That’s how it always was, and this time would be no different – unless she put up a fight, a fight worthy of her granddaughter’s right to choose her own life.

Turning back to her needlepoint, Gamma tried to concentrate on the pillow in her lap. It was a gift for their distant kin, depicting Celeste’s life and hopefully a map for her first campfire storytelling. She had not wanted to upset Myrtle, but time was not her friend. She’d learned first hand that too much could change too fast; and now supper would be smothered by angry silence. “For what?” Gamma asked the birds. “Ticket to a dance?”

Had her husband lived, she’d still be in New York, running their three shops with closed eyes, for everything her husband knew, she knew as well, thanks to his blessed mother, Katrine. She’d hoped to do the same with Myrtle, despite their rocky start, until the sudden deaths led them to sell the stores and move to this town of glassy eyes and wagging tongues. Oh, how she missed New York’s quirky imperfections, so unlike this hamlet where everyone strived to be the same; Myrtle most of all, willing to become whatever she thought they wanted in exchange for acceptance and status.

Gamma sighed again, putting away her stitchery. Truth be told, she had failed her own son with the same blindness now driving Myrtle; guilty of putting her own wants ahead of her son’s dreams. And for that, she was deeply sorry. But it also was the reason she felt such urgency with Celeste. As the last of their Bohemian line, the girl was Gamma’s only chance to honor the vow she’d made so many moons ago. If Celeste did not come to understand their Heart Code, no one would be left to pass it on. So no matter the discord, Celeste deserved more than an invitation to a cotillion by which to measure her self-worth.

~

Brusquely opening the door of their hardware store and finding it empty, Myrtle brushed past the shop’s counter and burst through the office door. Martin jumped in his seat, dropping his pencil.

“I refuse! Simply refuse!” Myrtle stamped her feet for emphasis. “To sacrifice my daughter to that old woman’s ancient faith. What can Celeste gain among those … those … mountain people?”

“Jeepers, Myrtle, lower your voice,” Martin cautioned, pulling off his green visor. He felt muddled by the sudden interruption after working on the shop’s accounts all afternoon, and he hated arguing with anyone, especially in public.

“Don’t you admonish me, Martin Howe, not after what I’ve been through. It’s not you who has to spend all day dealing with your mother’s foolishness.”

Rubbing his face, Martin sank back into his chair. “Sit down. Calm down. What’s the hoo-ha now?”

Pulling off her gloves, Myrtle perched on the chair alongside his desk. “If you don’t put a stop to it, she’ll ruin all our plans and our daughter’s future.”

Leaning back, Martin saw a dozen images of this same conflict flash through his mind. Since the move to Connecticut, his wife repeatedly clashed with his mother over the identical issue: Her lust for all things social, juxtaposed with his mother’s ideology. “What is it today?” he asked quietly.

“The plans for this summer, to introduce Celeste to the right people so she’ll have a chance – a chance I never had, until I met you. But times are different now. We must keep her on the right track.”

“What?”  Martin was baffled.

“Your mother wants to take Celeste to Bohemia this summer. The most important summer of her life! When they’ll be choosing who to invite to the Cotillion! Everything I’ve

worked for will piffle away!”

“The Women’s Club Cotillion? In the fall?”

“Yes, in the fall, but if she isn’t around this summer to make the proper impression, they won’t even know she’s alive. Don’t you see? We can’t miss this opportunity.”

Martin rubbed his face again. Twenty-six years ago it seemed like a good idea to move to this small town to escape their losses: first his newborn son, then his father, then his youth, abruptly shunted aside to become head of household with a grieving mother, an inconsolable wife and three New York hardware stores to run. Barely 22 before his father died and still a boy in many respects, he was well educated but apprenticing the family business, with all the serious responsibilities still squarely on his father’s shoulders. It had been only a few short years from his knock-about days on the docks of New York, dreaming of being a sailor like his Uncle Yazi, traveling the world with a yo-ho-ho and a bottle of rum. But then he met Myrtle and quickly eloped for reasons that now seemed hazy, and instantly his whole world changed.

“What did Mother say?” he asked.

Myrtle knew he would check her every word. “She said she promised to take Celeste to Bohemia when she was 16 – same as you – and wants to do it this summer, in spite of knowing what a sacrifice it would mean for Celeste’s future.” She quickly rose, leaned on Martin’s desk, her face close to his, her voice quiet and intense. “Can’t you do something? Convince her that next year would be better, so as not to jeopardize our daughter’s chances? Besides, how can we afford it after the crash and talk of depression?”

Martin shook his head. “Father willed Mother her own money.”

Myrtle whirled around, dropping in her chair, summoning forced tears. “I can’t believe you’d let all my hard work slip down the drain.”

Martin stared at her contorted face. When they first met, her frailty had captivated him. She seemed the polar opposite of his mother and grandmother, the two towering pillars of strength that dominated his life. Her fearful nature, adoring eyes and neediness gave him a cause. Myrtle was someone he could protect. So, despite his Mother’s probing and his own gnawing doubt, he followed Myrtle to a justice of the peace and became a young husband with a soon pregnant wife, living in his father’s ample house and enjoying his mother’s meals as he tested the sails and riggings of life. But with his father’s sudden death, he was called on deck and thrusted the tiller before he even knew how to tie a proper knot. In that moment, trading New York for Connecticut seemed right, a place to begin anew. Before he truly knew his wife or welcomed the birth of his daughter; or held his breath through the “war to end all wars” or endured prohibition and the women’s right to vote and the 1920’s roar when Noel Coward’s plays and Fitzgerald’s books and Picasso’s paintings ruled the day. Now, with Wall Street’s debacle unhinging everyone’s plans, Martin questioned what he’d done with his life. How changes he’d innocently set in motion nearly three decades before had come to impact everything he held most dear: his wife, his mother, his child, his heritage and especially – especially – the man he had hoped to become.

“We’ll talk tonight,” he offered, “and see what can be worked out.”

~

After supper, when Celeste slipped off to do her homework and Myrtle began washing up, Martin broke the tense silence that had shrouded their meal. Stirring his coffee, he quietly asked, “Mother, how long were you thinking to be gone?”

Myrtle gasped, turning from the sink with soapy hands dripping on the floor. “But Martin, it’s already settled. I’ve made the arrangements. We can’t cancel now.”

“Four weeks.” Gamma ignored Myrtle’s glare, stirring honey in her tea. “Six days on ship to London, then Paris and Prague, and six days back.”

In the corner of his eye, Martin saw Myrtle vigorously shaking her head. “You promised me.” Her voice shook. “There won’t be another chance like this. Think of Celeste’s future.”

Gamma nodded slowly. “Yah, Myrtle is wise. Think of Celeste’s future and the children she have one day. Who tell your grandchildren of Bohemian culture? Or will they know only Gladdenbury ways?”

Myrtle huffed. “You and that Bohemian piffle. It’s your answer for everything.”

“Myrtle…” Martin cautioned.

“What do you want from me, Martin? I’ve worked hard and long, and now you take it all away so she can traipse through the woods with…with…some hooligans across the sea! After all I’ve done to give our daughter the best possible life?”

Myrtle’s puffy face saddened Gamma. Too much weary discord. “Myrtle,” she began softly. “Is not your answer or mine that matters. Is the questions in Celeste heart and what she dream to follow.”

Martin’s head lowered and tilted to the left as he considered his mother’s words.

Remembering his own trip to their homeland so many years ago, he’d never been able to explain to Myrtle how he felt among the Bohemian hills of their family’s settlement, where the air felt soft despite the hard life the farmers led. Where laughter rang clear among his aunts, uncles and cousins, who wished each other well no matter what road they took. Nor had he told her how he felt growing up in New York, surrounded by his mother’s varied friends who, like his Bohemian relatives, laughed and talked incessantly of questions and dreams. Where had his own dreams gone, he wondered? Did any embers of questions still hide in the recesses of his heart?

Then he thought of Celeste. His body filled with unfettered love. Despite the losses, discarded dreams and disappointments in the ten long years before his daughter’s miraculous birth, he’d repeat every step just to see her smile.

Looking at his scowling wife, hands planted on her hips, and then at his mother’s placid face, he realized it was probably too late for his own questions and dreams, but not for his daughter’s. Downing his coffee, he squared his shoulders, faced his wife’s glare and then his mother’s attentive gaze.

“I think this is the time for Celeste,” he said, enunciating the words that would reverberate for hours. “Take her, Mother. Take Celeste to Bohemia for as long as you like and show her all she needs to know.” And silently, he finished the thought to himself: “Maybe she’ll do what I could not and follow her heart’s call.”  ¤

Chapter Three: THE GYPSY

THE GYPSY

August 1930

 After six days crossing the Atlantic and four nights of London theater and a sail across the English Channel and a train to Paris for four more days of shopping, touring and dining, Gamma and Celeste were both near collapse as they trundled into a private sleeper on the overnight train to Nuremberg. Aroused in the blue-black, predawn light for the final leg of the journey to Prague, they crossed the German border into the foothills of the Bohemian Forest, where Gamma sighed deeply.

“Such green air smell!” She nudged Celeste, slumped on the seat.

“All I smell is stinky train,” Celeste muttered, rubbing her nose as she hid under her coat. “How much longer will it be?” Then fell back asleep.

As the train chugged between the rolls of her beloved mountains, Gamma vigilantly watched as the countryside unfolded its sweet arms of boughs and streams. The gradual change from hills to plain, with glimpses of the Vltava River as they meandered through her homeland, warmed her heart and fired memories all the way to Prague.

“Is time now, wake up.” Gamma shook Celeste.

Struggling and cranky, Celeste shuffled onto the platform behind Gamma, following a porter who transferred their luggage to a taxi, where she slumped again as Gamma gave directions in her native tongue and the motorcar pulled away. Seeing her granddaughter’s eyes closed, Gamma poked her. “Dítě, look and see.”

Celeste opened one eye. “What?”

“Prague in early light. We not here again this hour.” She then arched one eyebrow, and Celeste bolted upright.

Traversing through the streets, Gamma pointed out the monuments, museums and churches, the castle on the hill and all the people attending their early morning duties. Unable to follow half of what Gamma was saying, Celeste almost quipped: the butcher, the baker, the candlestick maker. But she refrained from the flippancy and dutifully watched as the city awoke before her eyes in a soothing, cool wash of golden light. Soon they were in the countryside, riding in silence as the sun rose higher, banishing shadows from the few houses dotting the roadside.

“How far now?” Celeste asked, stifling a yawn. “And when can we eat?”

From her pocket, Gamma fished a dinner roll, wrapped in her hanky. “Eat this, but soon, more food than you dream.”

As the taxi labored up a hill, Celeste heard bleating and looked out the window.  “Look, Gamma, goats! Just like you said.”

“Likely your cousin, going to pasture.”

“But why go to pasture? There’s plenty of grass right there.”

“Grass, yah, but something extra they need. Remember Paris goat cheese?”

Celeste thought for a moment. “The savory sweet one?”

“Yah. Is by goats eating special things in pastures like ours.”

“Like what?”

“Soon you see. And much more, too,” Gamma added with a mysterious nod.

The taxi suddenly turned off the road and bounced up a rutted driveway, shrouded by tall pines, until the view opened onto a field of waving grain. In the distance, they saw a cluster of thatch-roof houses.

“Are we home?” Celeste asked.

“Home we are,” Gamma answered with moist eyes.

As the taxi stopped, a whoop came from the barn and a bell rang out, followed by a swarm of dogs and people running from all directions, calling Gamma’s name. “Bertra Vojen! … Bertra Vojen! … Bertra Vojen!” were the only words Celeste understood as men, women and children of all ages rushed to greet them. The words tumbled past her like cartwheels of happiness as the clan clustered around, everyone talking, grabbing their bags, stroking their hair, touching their garments and pinching their cheeks. Gamma introduced Celeste to everyone, but she barely heard their names before she and Gamma were swept into the biggest house, where a table was piled with more food than Celeste had ever seen.

Gamma’s elbow nudged her. “See? Just like I say.”

The aroma was intoxicating, teasing her nose with sweet and savory wafts. Without another thought, Celeste sat down and heaped a plate with sliced sausages and ham and fresh-baked bread slathered with butter and jam and a hard-boiled egg and a bowl of fresh berries doused with cream, while Gamma laughed and talked with her kin. Between bites, Celeste looked around the hearth room, as Gamma had called it. One big everything room surrounding the fireplace. She gazed across the blackened kitchen pots hanging from the rafters followed by bundles of drying herbs, leading her eye to the window with a cozy seat – where she spied a cluster of needlepoint pillows and her heart leapt. Gamma pillows! Warmth washed over her chest. Many were the same as they had at home, depicting the stories of Gamma’s life: her travel to America, her home in New York, their Connecticut house and Celeste’s birth. Oh, it felt good to see something familiar so far away.

Then she saw a pillow she didn’t recognize, one depicting a large green heart with a copper arrow piercing it and fat strings of tears gushing from its puncture wound. Although very much in Gamma’s style, it was unlike any Celeste had seen, and she wondered what story it told. Rising from the table, she walked toward the window seat for a closer look, when a gust of laughter erupted among her relatives. Turning, she saw Gamma holding out a package to an old woman and waving for Celeste to come.

“Celeste, meet my niece Lidia.”

Celeste blinked. The woman was much older than Gamma; at least much more wrinkly. Celeste’s confused expression made the others in the room laugh, and her face flushed hot with embarrassment.

“Yah, clear you see. Lidia older to me.”

Someone translated what Gamma said and Lidia scoffed.

“Still, she is niece,” Gamma continued. Daughter of my eldest sister, who marry before I born.”

Celeste nodded, still a little confused, then turned and smiled sweetly at the old woman who viewed her with cold, narrow eyes. Lidia nodded gravely as she inspected her young cousin.

“Now, she village elder. So to her we present our gift,” Gamma summarized as she handed the package to Lidia for unwrapping. Then she whispered into Celeste’s ear: “Maybe is time, you tell pillow’s story?”

Celeste blanched, shaking her head. It was too frightening to speak in front of so many people. Plus how could they understand? She spoke only English and maybe a little French. “I don’t think so,” she whispered back, then tugged at Gamma’s sleeve to ask about the crying-heart pillow. But when she turned to point it out, it had vanished. Leaving the group, Celeste looked all around the window seat but could find it nowhere.

Laughter burst out again as Gamma held up the new pillow, showing their Gladdenbury life: the creek, the church choir and their hardware store, centered around the town green. In her old language, with an exuberance of sounds Celeste had never heard before, Gamma told the story of each image. It made her feel a little homesick, and she forgot about the crying-heart pillow.

When Gamma finished, everyone applauded and began to depart, returning to their daily chores, leaving Gamma and Celeste to go up to their room, change out of their travel clothes, wash up and nap. A couple of hours later, they rose and dressed in slacks and sturdy shoes to walk about the farm.

“And the goat pasture?” Celeste reminded.

“Yah, if not too tired.”

“Oh, I’m not tired.”

But by the time they’d climbed the hill to the pasture, Celeste had to lie down in the middle of some wildflowers to catch her breath. The sweet scents enveloping her matched the delicate flowers floating by her face. “You did this everyday?”

“Um-hm, only faster; goats like to run.” Opening the paper sack she’d brought along, Gamma spread out a napkin and placed on it cheese, bread and dried apples. “Eat some, you feel better.”

As they snacked, the sun began to wane and a light wind rustled the trees.

“You hear?” Gamma tilted her head. “Is forest name: Šumava.”

“Shoo-mava,” Celeste repeated, trying to memorize everything.

“Means: noise of trees in wind.”

The sound washed over them, reminding Celeste of the ocean sucking at the sand, but soon she grew restless. “Shouldn’t we get back?”

Ne, we go over hill, now” Gamma answered, gathering up their picnic. “To meet old friend.”

Celeste brushed off her slacks. “A childhood friend?”

“Her mother I first know, when small. Her Gypsy family come here every summer.”

“Gypsies!” Celeste interrupted. “Aren’t they bad people who rob and steal?”

“Celeste!”  Gamma’s voice sharpened. “Every people have bad seed. But gypsies are feared because they strangers, traveling place to place. My friend and her family come to Šumava every summer, long before I born. I meet her here, this very pasture, and learn much things. Things no one else could say.”

“Like what?”

Gamma squeezed Celeste’s leg. “Like you coming to us, four years before you born.”

Celeste face twisted. “Like a witch?”

Ne,” Gamma shook her head. “Not spells. She has gift of Second sight, of prophecy, as does her daughter, who now we go to see. To hear story of our ancestors. The first Bohemians.”

“Why don’t you tell me that?”

“Because you hear better this way. Like London theater.”

Celeste giggled nervously.

“And dítě, listen well, for her talk is odd, but truth she tell.” Gamma said, standing and tucking the paper sack under her belt, then picked up her walking stick and led Celeste across the field. As they marched along, she pointed out the thistle and laurel and lavender that made the goat’s cheese taste so nice. Down a hill and across a stream and up the other side they walked as the sky darkened, giving Celeste a creepy feeling, until she saw a glow at the top of the path. Scuttling to catch up with Gamma, Celeste took her hand as they approached a circle of wagons. Gamma paused and yelled: “Hooo Ahhhh!” Then nudged Celeste to sidle between two wagons into a clearing where a roaring bonfire danced.

“Hooo Ahhhh!” A gypsy woman answered, whirling her skirt as she came toward the sweet-faced adolescent and white-haired woman entering their camp. Nodding respectfully to the older woman, the gypsy grasped the girl’s chin, pulling her close and peering into her face before exclaiming: “Ahh, yes. The cut of jaw, the lifted cheeks, the kind-filled eyes – is Vojen clan.”

As twilight faded, the gypsy led Celeste and Gamma to the campfire, pointing to a log for them to sit on, then clapped the air, bangles clashing down both arms, bidding her family to join them. “Brothers, sisters, come quick! As prophesized by our great Madre’ – God rest her soul – to our hearth the young one has arrived. From across the ocean she come, to learn her spirit roots. Behold – the beauty of Madre’s vision – sixteen years from birth.”

The gypsy gazed at Celeste and then Gamma. Two peas in a pod, sharing a pale, round shape with high, ruddy cheeks and liquid blue eyes, one skin smooth and luminous, the other softly folded and powdered bright. As long shadows closed out the forest, the gypsy knelt, snatching a handful of dirt and raising it to the darkened sky. “Oghma, Celtic God of Wisdom, tonight I beseech you: Silver my lips with your gift of words that I might persuade this young heart to hear and feel the story of her kin, upon whose great land we now sit.”

Flinging open her hand, she slashed dirt into the fire, where it spit and snapped, doubling the flames’ height. Startled, Celeste jumped in her seat, spontaneously clapping until Gamma gently squeezed her hands quiet. Turning their attention back to the gypsy, they saw her standing alongside the fire, her arms lifted high, pointing long bony fingers as she spoke. “Is story of long ago, before the rise of Greece or fall of Rome. Before the birth of Mohammed, Buddha or Christ. Before words were written or candles lit the night. Of a time after the north’s icy fingers withdrew their grip and left upon this land a magic dust.”

With her lithe body in colorful garb, only gray streaks in the gypsy’s raven hair gave any hint of her age. Prowling the campfire with pursed lips, she arched a bushy eyebrow at Celeste. “And south from here, in the land between rivers, this icy dust made a valley fertile. A hearty loam with minerals that proffered many crops: wheat, barley, sesame and flax. When news of this abundance spread, to that basin many tribes flocked for the promise of fruit and bread. To Mesopotamia the masses flew, and among them a noble group: the people of your ancient heart – the Celtic tribe of Boii.”

A flash of recognition crossed Celeste’s face as she looked to Gamma, who nodded and closed her eyes.

Spinning around the fire, her bangles tinging furiously, the gypsy suddenly dropped onto the log beside her startled young visitor. “Your people, the Boii, journeyed to find a home to live in harmony.  To grow crops and raise families and honor the divine Goddess from whom all goodness flowed.”

In the shadowy edge of the camp stood a gypsy girl, swaying a ruddy-faced baby on her hip. With narrowed eyes and pouting lips she scowled at her mother’s embellished delivery of the old Bohemian tale.

Like many people of the time, the Boii were in need of new earth to call their own. Roaming south to east to north to west, with every sense awake, they watched for signs of what direction they should take.”

“What kind of signs?” Celeste interrupted in a clear voice.

Gamma’s eyes flew open as the gypsy replied.

“Oh, there are many kinds. Signs crawl below and fly above. A whispering breeze on the back of your knees. A fallen tree blocking your way. A prickle of skin when someone walks by, or a burning ear at the sound of a lie. Everywhere signs are waiting to be seen or heard or felt. Signs of change, signs of comfort, signs to snap alert. A tall, white bird standing in the creek told us of your birth long before your grandmother’s letter reached our hearth.”

The baby’s sudden cry turned the older gypsy toward the girl standing in the shadows with seething, defiant eyes. The gypsy dismissed her daughter and fussing grandchild with a flip of her hand then returned attention to her guests around the fire.

“Following the signs, the Boii were led; first to that fertile basin between the Rivers Tigris and Euphrates. But instead of harmony and health, the Boii found a valley distressed. Crowded with camps and quickly sprouting cities, bloated with people shouting in strange tongues and with scheming kings, demanding their will be done. Under such confines, the Celtic spirit withers, so the Boii moved on. Along mountains to the north they climbed, and west across vast open steppes until at last they come to this grassy plain, flanked by rivers and mountain forests. Only then did they feel the ‘Ahhh’ in their breast, confirming the land where their hearts could rest.”

Celeste interrupted once again. “Excuse me, but how could they know?”

“Know what?” The gypsy asked sharply.

“Their heart’s call?”  Celeste asked, her round eyes sincere.

With chin in hand, the gypsy looked over the girl’s head into the eyes of Gamma, who smiled benignly, lifting her eyebrows in return. The gypsy shrugged, but felt a brief quiver in her chest. “Is simple. In each heart lies the code for what your spirit seeks.”

Celeste sat up taller, slightly raising her hand. “But what does it sound like?”

The gypsy grunted as she rose from the log, crashing one bangled arms against the other. “No one sound, but to all it feel the same!” The gypsy tapped her chest as her voice trembled. “In here you feel the sound of Yes.”

Around the campfire, the other gypsies stomped in agreement as Celeste smiled weakly, glancing across the weathered faces.

With outstretched arms the gypsy whirled. “And here the Boii heard ‘Yes.’ Among the seven hills of Prague and along the River Vltava, they made their home and found their truth and freedom to raise children and grow crops and work their crafts, sharing the secret of living from the heart – for two thousand years, or more.”

A distant howling in the woods sent a shiver up Celeste’s back, but she would not unlock her eyes from the gypsy’s.

Artisans and honest traders, the Boii were known for vivid colored threads and joyous carvings in stone, bone and metal crafts of copper, iron, tin and bronze. But for one gift the Boii were most renowned: Masters of the Story Told.

Save the cackling flames and wandering smoke, the campfire was still as the gypsy spoke. “A skill so great, their stories traveled well beyond these hills, on the lips of travelers to lands far away, and scribed on papyrus by ancient Greek scholars.”

Celeste’s eyes followed the gypsy as she paced around the campfire three times, until she finally stood still, looking to the sky. “Why did they leave then?” she dared ask in a loud whisper.

Without moving a hair, the gypsy replied: “Jealousy. Envy. Greed. Man’s worst enemies.” She glared at the girl for a moment before softening. “Fifty years before the Christ was born, a sulking unrest crept across these lands with swords, battles and bloodshed by marauding barbarians, hired by Caesar to vacate the land. Feeling the discontented winds, the Boii built fortified walls for protection, but was not enough against a sudden assault by warriors who savagely killed every Boii they could find. Those who survived scattered west and south, toward France, Spain and Italy and perhaps farther still. But it is said, on this land, a handful remained, tucked safely away until quiet returned.”

Sitting taller, Gamma pushed back her shoulders and raised her head, eyes dancing with pride. Celeste looked at her and quietly mouthed: “Us?” Gamma nodded as the gypsy strut around the campfire.

“As quickly as they came, the barbarians left, and save the pocket of Boii safe in these northern forests, the rest of the land lay fallow for many years until, from the east came the Slavic clans, who embraced the remaining Boii and lived peacefully alongside.”

The gypsy slowed her pace, stopping in front of Gamma and Celeste. “Through it all, the Bohemian spirit thrived, and in 600 A.D., when the Bohemian-Slavic mix rose to claim this land as their own, they honored named it Bohemia, and thus remained, no matter what kingdom rose or fell, for thirteen hundred years, until … until …”

“After war, was no more,” Gamma spoke in an icy voice.

Roiling her hands in pained discomfort, the gypsy silently invoked the smoky fire and wind to wash from her heart the final, soothing words. “Yes, is so. Our Bohemia is forever gone but not the Bohemian Heart. For in these trees and soil the bohemian spirit still soars, passed by blood from grandmother to son to daughter and further still to children soon begotten. And with its people flung across the world, the Bohemian spirit thrives in distant lands, through all those who seek truth in the wisdom of their heart.” The gypsy abruptly turned to address her tribe, while pointing to Celeste. “And from the loins of this Vojen girl, a great Bohemian spirit will rise and travel forth, teaching many more the true wisdom that lies within each chest.”

Suddenly exhausted, the gypsy twirled three times, clapped her hands and ended the story. Without another word, she escorted her guests to the camp’s edge, stroked Celeste’s hair and kissed her forehead. Then gazing deeply into Gamma’s eyes, she raised her arm and shook her many copper bracelets before selecting six and offered them to her. As the bracelets exchanged hands, the Gypsy murmured something to Gamma that Celeste could not hear, and with a final nod, she abruptly left, leaving her honored guests to be guided home under her brother’s safe care.

Slowly climbing a wagon’s steps, the gypsy found her daughter sprawled on the bed, the baby suckling her breast. She swiftly grabbed the sullen girl’s arm and hissed. “Daughter, you are disgraced by your tantrum tonight. The campfire is yours to tell the nightly tale, but this was my destiny and right, prophesied by my mother two decades prior. One day the same is yours to fill – to the last child of our young visitor. Yet you, so hateful of all things Boii, will likely detest her on sight. But mark my words and be wiser than you were tonight when that true Bohemian arrives, in forty years time.”

¤

Chapter Four: VOJEN VILLAGE

VOJEN VILLAGE

August 1930

 As the early morning light crept through the small, leaded windowpanes, Celeste awoke and bolted upright, startled and confused by the carved, wooden creatures rising from the ornate footboard. This was not her bed, nor did her room have rough-hewn beams overhead. As panic fingered her throat, she heard the smothered snore under the covers, the lullaby she’d slept to since birth, and slid back down, drawing the feather comforter to her chin, sighing. This was her grandmother’s childhood home, one of a dozen thatch-roofed cottages clustered along a ridge in the Bohemian Forest, thousands of miles from her whitewashed Connecticut bedroom.

In the quiet, Celeste studied the thick veins of lead separating the small panes of wavy glass and the speckled plaster on the walls under the sloping eaves. She counted the dark, uneven beams across the ceiling and felt centuries of stories seeping from every crack and crevice. How many generations of her kin had slept beneath them? Did Gamma say the 14th Century, or was that something else? Everything she’d seen on this trip was so old she’d begun to lose track. But it didn’t matter; the stories from all the years hugged her like goatskin gloves.

Dozing off, her thoughts flashed to the gypsy fire, recalling the rolling, colorful skirts, clattering bracelets and clapping hands. She could still smell the smoke lingering in her hair and hear the gypsy’s lilting voice singing something about ‘‘the Vojen girl.’’  Who was that, Celeste wondered? Her name was Howe.

Several snorts and sneezes erupted next to her. “Celeste?” Gamma muttered, emerging from the blankets. Clasping her grandmother’s flailing hand, Celeste helped her sit up, fluffing the pillows behind her. “Good Morning Gamma! Sleep well?”

“Mmgh. Smoke in my nose. Water, please.”

Celeste poured a glass from the pitcher on her side table and watched Gamma drink it down by small sips. “Good now.” Gamma handed back the glass. “And you?  How you sleep after such foretelling?”

Celeste shook her head, “Foretelling?”

“What gypsy say. Your fate.”

“What do you mean? She talked of a Vojen girl, but I’m a Howe, like you.”

Gamma shook her head. “Howe I marry, but still Vojen, as you, too.” Pushing herself up to lean on the headboard, she saw Celeste’s doubtful expression. “Biology?  Remember what your father teach you of the chromosomes? Father: X or Y but mother always X? So every child has mother memories. To your papa I give Vojen memories, and he to you. And to your children, you pass the same. Is how Vojens of Bohemia continue, no matter what last name.”

Celeste’s eyes crinkled. “So the gypsy spoke of my children?”

Gamma touched the six copper bracelets on her arm. “All six.”

“For certain?” Celeste asked, afraid to touch the bracelets.

Gamma shrugged. “Nothing certain. Gypsy see, but is yours to choose, or not.”

Celeste fell silent, imagining six runny noses, twelve booted feet, and a dozen mittens for her to fetch and mend. It did not feel sweet.

As if reading her mind, Gamma patted her hand. “Is not just chores, dítĕ. Think of stories you have when old like me!”

“Is that why you love this place so much? The stories?” Celeste asked, looking at the carved wardrobes and burled bedding chest.

“Mmmm,” Gamma patted the covers to draw her close. As Celeste snuggled, Gamma stroked her hair. “With grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins … so many stories since time of Boii.”

“Really, Gamma?” Celeste interrupted. “Before Christ?”

“Long before.”

“But Gamma, why didn’t they fight the warriors instead of running away?”

“They not live all together. There were many villages along Vltava River. But at river Danube, where Valtava joins, is biggest settlement; where warriors first strike. Then word come up river …”

“How did it come?”

“By running or on horse.”

“To get help?”

“No, to warn. The Boii not fight. They hide or run, hoping to keep alive.”

“But how did … you, the Vojens, end up staying here?”

“Maybe we just stubborn,” Gamma said with a wink. “Or maybe someone sick or maybe

mama with child and could not run far. So they hide until birth, and by then, warriors gone. So

we stay and build new home – far from river bank.”

Celeste silently counted in her head. “Nineteen hundred years ago?”

Gamma nodded.

“But how can you know it’s true? That Vojens are descendents of Boii Celts?”

“Ah. Story say my great, great, great grandfather like to dig in caves near here, high in hills, and find many things: fossils, pots, carved bones. But best thing he find make everyone believe: old silver coin. A Boii coin, with carved horse, made 75 years before Christ born.”

Celeste shook her head “They had money?”

“Everything, Celeste. Everything to make life good: food, art, trade. Maybe is why warriors came. Maybe they not like Boii happiness. So they came and kill, but soon leave and we still here, on river and hill.”

“Was it like that for you, Gamma?  Growing up here?”

“Oh yah! Very happy. From everyone I learn good gifts.” Gamma patted the comforter. “But enough talk now. Is time to see and do. Up! Up!”

Scrambling out of bed, Celeste reached for her clothes, neatly folded on a chair.

“No. Today we dress Bohemian,” Gamma said, opening the chest at the foot of the bed and pulling out long skirts of many colored fabrics. “One for you and one for me and a kerchief for your hair, so it don’t get full of hay from working farm.”

“Working farm?”

“Yah, today your hands learn. Take these boots. City shoes can’t muck stalls.”

“Muck stalls?” Celeste hoped Gamma was kidding as she changed into a long, full skirt and white cotton top. By the time they entered the kitchen, everyone was gone, but a plate of hard-cooked eggs, toast and bacon waited for them, along with a pitcher of cool milk. Celeste poured herself a glass and took a big swig.

“Augh!” She gagged. “It’s spoiled!”

“Ha-ha-ha-ha. Not spoiled. Is goat’s milk!”

Celeste swished her mouth with water. “Awful.”

“They don’t care, so long you don’t squeeze teats too hard.”

“What?”

“When you milk them. Come, eat up, chores we have.”

~

For the next five days, Celeste ran around the farm learning everything she could. Milking goats and cows, cleaning stalls, tossing pitchforks of hay from the top of the barn to the animals below, hiking to the pasture with the goats and learning the names of all the trees and flowers along the way. She practiced the Czech language with her cousins as best she could because they didn’t understand her English, and they laughed at her bumbling pronunciation. Once, she spied the gypsy girl she’d seen at the campfire, on the far side of the pasture, and she ran to say hello, but the girl disappeared into the woods. Each afternoon, with trembling arms from carrying wood and pails of milk to the house, she rolled up her sleeves and cooked alongside Gamma for several hours, roasting chickens and lambs and potatoes and funny looking roots she’d never seen before.

“Kohlrabi and rutabaga,” Gamma said, then sent her scuttling to collect watercress from the stream.

Celeste loved how all the food they needed grew under their feet, and she adored the warmth of a newly laid egg in her hand. She even came to like the taste of goat’s milk, squirted directly into her mouth from a teat. One cousin showed her how to sling a stone and another how to stitch lace. She thought she might faint when they first set her on a horse without a saddle. “Hold with your legs” they shouted, slapping the horse’s haunches as she instinctively grabbed its mane and held tight, yelping as it cantered across the field. And every night, before she fell into an exhausted sleep, unlike any she’d experienced at home, she’d listen to someone tell a story about life or dreams or history. Even though she couldn’t understand what they were saying, she liked the way they told it, particularly the elders, who were animated in voice and body as they spoke the tale. But when she was asked to tell a story, she always declined, afraid she had nothing interesting to say.

“Tell them about our town” Gamma suggested one night.

Celeste’s head dropped. “It’s not nearly as lovely as this.”

While it was too early to shear the sheep, one of the aunts taught her how to spin and card wool. An uncle showed her how to swing a scythe to cut the grass and told her she had such a good arm he’d gladly keep her on to cut the wheat. It made her more proud than any good grade she’d earned in school.

“Tinka’s my favorite,” Celeste confided to Gamma, snuggling in bed on their last night.

“She’s always so kind to me, and I like how she sings to the goats, throaty and sweet. Do you

think we can come back here again next summer? There’s so much more I want to learn.”

No words could have been sweeter to Gamma as sleep kissed their eyelids.

On the last morning, Celeste did not want to get up so fast. She wanted to savor every second, every image, every sound her body could absorb. “Gamma, growing up here, what did you like best?”

Rolling over, Gamma looked at Celeste’s face, tinged with sadness. “The same as you: learning new things.”

“What were your favorites?”

Gamma didn’t stop to think. “When my brother Yazi teach me slingshot.”

“I know how to do that now, too!”

“Yah, and then bow and arrow, to keep goats safe.”

Celeste’s eyebrows shot up, remembering the pillow with the arrow and heart. She pushed herself up. “Gamma, on our first day, I saw a story pillow, one I’d never seen before, with a golden arrow piercing a crying green heart, and I’ve been wondering what it meant.”

For an instant, Gamma froze, then drew her lower lip under her teeth. “Where you see this?” The sharpness in her voice took Celeste by surprise.

“On the window seat in the kitchen, with all your other pillows, on the first day. But when I looked for it again, it was gone. Did you make it?”

Gamma shuddered, feeling a chill in the warm room. “I’m … I’m … can’t say.” She continued haltingly. “Maybe some time ago, but … unless I see, don’t know.” Her mind raced. How could it be? That pillow was to be destroyed 20 years ago. Her sister swore she’d burn it after they agreed both had cried enough and nothing more could be said to erase the sorrow and shame of the mistake. After her sister died, she’d thought no more about the pillow – yet now it comes again. For why? By who? Gamma wanted answers, but not to tell Celeste. The girl did not need to know about this. Not now, when everything was good and fresh. Not knowing what to do, Gamma changed the subject.

“Do you know Auntie Mae taught me sewing? She want I be a dressmaker in Prague and escape the farm she could not.”

“But why would anyone want to leave?”

Gamma shrugged uncomfortably. “Farm not for everyone. Some like city life.”

“Then why didn’t she go to the city?”

“Because when young, she too afraid, and then she marry and babies come and was too late. But she help everyone with wild hearts and itchy feet to find contentment outside here, wherever it may be.”

Celeste sighed, flopping on a pillow. “I wish I could stay here all my life.”

“Yah? What you like so much?” Gamma asked, relieved by the diversion.

Looking around the room, Celeste lifted her arms, trying to embrace it all. “I don’t know. It just seems there is so much more laughter here than in Gladdenbury.” She giggled. “I never noticed that before: Glad-en-bury, where they bury all the gladness?” Rolling over, Celeste continued laughing as Gamma patted her back.

“A good, simple life, yah. Not so much want.”

Celeste looked up. “How do you mean, not so much want?”

Gamma opened her mouth, then shut it. This was the crux of her discord with Myrtle, and the town, for that matter. She didn’t wish to put Celeste at odds with her mother; but the girl was nearly grown and would have to make her own decisions soon. Plus she had vowed to answer any question asked. “In Bohemia, needs are few. Good food. Soft bed. Strong work. Good eyes and ears to hear our heart’s call and path. But in Connecticut, and many places, seems not enough. So much want for things outside ourselves. Things for flattery and social … how you say? Status? Things to put on show. Make me weary.”

“But Gamma, what about all our nice things? The rugs and crystal and china and furniture Grandfather bought you? Those aren’t bad, are they?”

“Not by themselves. My husband choose gifts to honor life’s beauty. Treasures we share, filled with good memory. But not for showing off. Not for outside admiration. Understand?”

Before Celeste could reply, the door jolted open, revealing a stout young woman carrying a tray with coffee and toast. “Dobré rano, teto Bertro a sestrěnice Celeste”

“Good morning Cousin Maya.” Celeste replied.

Dĕkuji, Gamma thanked her great niece as she placed the tray on the blanket chest. “Very kind. Tell your mother we soon be down. Much to see in Prague before the night train.”

Maya closed the door as Celeste poured the coffee, adding sugar and cream.

“I didn’t know Maya understood English.”

Gamma laughed. “She never let on, eh? Some girls hide smarts to not scare off marriage

partner. But Maya is just quiet. She know several languages and has big dream for life.”

With bright eyes Celeste nodded, chewing a corner of crusty bread slathered with butter and a tart, red jam she’d come to love, thinking how some old-country ways were still the same in her life, too.

~

In quick order they ate, bathed, dressed in their city clothes and rapidly packed their trunk and carpet bags. After three weeks of travel, it was their only day to enjoy Prague before catching the overnight train to Port Le Havre, where their ship departed tomorrow. With tears in her eyes Celeste bear-hugged and kissed her newfound relatives in their ancient village, then climbed into the rattling farm truck with cousin Maya at the wheel. Gamma spoke very little as they drove to the city’s train depot, where they would store their luggage until departure. At the station, Celeste supervised the storage while Gamma said goodbye to Maya.

Holding Maya close, Gamma kissed her hair before pulling back to look hard in her eyes. “Maya,” she said gravely. “Truth I must know. Did Lidia put crying pillow for Celeste to see?”

Maya’s mouth dropped open as she slowly shook her head.

“So, not burned? As my sister promise?” Gamma pushed on Maya’s knowledge even though she had been very young when the promise was made. But in their small village, secrets were hard to keep, and everyone knew the story. Lidia had seen to that.

Nodding, Maya answered haltingly. “Gramma Lidia kept the pillow. She promised to burn it as great grandmamma asked, but she did not. I … haven’t seen it … in a long time. I give my word.”

Gamma looked at her sharply, searching for truth in every expression on her face and body. Satisfied, she squeezed Maya’s hands. “God willing, is gone for good. But if you see it, burn it and send me the ashes.” She then slipped a small envelope into Maya’s pocket. “For your help this week. Buy new dress, or books, whatever you like – and remember me.”

Maya hugged Gamma, and the two clung to each other for a long time.

Having returned before they finished, Celeste stood at a respectful distance, examining the lace gloves Maya’s mother had made for her. She’d never seen such delicate yet strong stitches. Maya called to Celeste as she climbed into the truck and saluted before turning the wheel and driving off. Gamma waved her hankie until she could no longer see any glimpse of the taillights. Patting her eyes dry, she pointed to the horse-and-buggy stand.

“Old Town Square via Wenceslas” Gamma ordered the horse squire.

“To the Astronomical Clock and Rathaus Town Hall,” Celeste gleefully added. As the horse clopped along the wide avenue, Celeste consulted her map. “Charles Bridge is your favorite, right?” she asked.

“Yah,” Gamma said, trying to brush aside her jumbled feelings and resume her role as travel guide. “King Charles the Fourth build it, in 14th Century.”

“That’s where you’d sneak off with Uncle Yazi on market days, right?” Celeste asked, but Gamma did not answer. The sway of the carriage overwhelmed her with memories; returning to the 1860’s in the back of her father’s wagon on their monthly trip to Prague market to sell their extra vegetables, goat cheese and woven goods. She was only eight on her first trip because most of her brothers and sisters were married and busy with their own households. Only brother Yazi, six years older, still lived at home with her. He was charged with teaching her the business of selling and buying, but he’d occasionally slip away to meet friends in other parts of the city and take her along. It was a heavenly time in her life, until she was ten and Yazi hopped a boat for Germany and all the world’s ports. Even though he’d talked about becoming a sailor for as long as she could remember, it broke her heart when he actually left, and the very next market day, she ran off, finding her way to Charles Bridge, a massive structure lined with scary statues of saints and jammed with people strolling and selling wares. With blurred eyes she pushed her way through the crowd, past stalls and rank smells, to the middle of the bridge, where she leaned far over its rough, thick stone wall and wept into the river, calling Yazi’s name.

“Gamma?” Worry tinged Celeste’s voice.

Opening her eyes, Gamma smiled weakly. Some hurts never heal no matter how time passes. “Yah, to Charles Bridge. But enough; tell me, you remember Astronomical Clock?”

In perfect form, Celeste recited the mechanical marvel of the 15th Century. “Not only does it tell time but shows the position of the earth, sun, moon, signs of the zodiac, time of sunrise and sunset and the day, week and month of the year. Oh, and the twelve apostles come out each hour. What do they do? Just zip around the clock?”

“Run fast before reaper bangs bell and cock’s wings flap and hour chimes.” Gamma said, tapping the map on Celeste’s lap. “Now look up. See my grand city with your own eyes.”

How much different it was from London and Paris, Celeste noted. London was gray and dour compared to Paris’ white-skirted style. But Prague was something much more. Like a fancy party dress with buildings washed in blues, pinks and tans, each donned with a red-tile hat. And singing a lovely, happy tune with wide avenues and curvy side streets and balconies dripping with pots of flowers and streaming ivy. Prague was a feast-ladened table compared to the butler’s pantry of London and the dessert tray of Paris.

Arriving at Old Town Square, Celeste’s head spun back and forth across the wide plaza thronged with sellers’ stalls and townsfolk. Soon, her neck ached, craning up the block stone walls and spiky spires of Tyn Cathedral. But her greatest surprise was seeing herself in the faces of strangers walking by, mirroring her lips, eyes, cheekbones and chin. At home, her rounded features looked odd among her sharp-faced Connecticut neighbors, but in Prague she felt a cozy relationship with nearly everyone.

In one corner of the square, they found a man with deeply worn, cracked hands selling beautiful inlaid wood bracelets. Gamma bought three. Tucked in a doorway they found an old woman dressed in rags with a basket of ornate, batiked eggs. After a long conversation, Gamma bought the lot, basket included. The woman cried, patting Gamma’s hand before tucking the money deep into her skirt pocket and scurrying across the plaza.

“Imagine,” Gamma said, examining the eggs’ intricate designs. “Four months to make these Pysanky eggs, to pay her grandson’s schooling.”

Wandering from cart to cart perusing the vegetables, breads, bedding and fineries, Celeste lingered over purses and crystal jewelry before selecting a few souvenirs. In the middle of the plaza, in front of the looming statue of national hero Jan Hus, a man stood on a box orating passionately to a small crowd. As hard as she tried to understand what he was shouting, Celeste caught only a word or two and could not understand what he was talking about.

As the sun rose higher, they climbed the Town Hall tower for a full view of Prague. Celeste laughed at the ant-sized people in the square below and marveled at the stretch of red roof tiles. “See the spires over there?” Gamma pointed across the Vltava River. “Is Prague Castle; where I most want to go as a child.”

“Why didn’t you?”

“We were farmers, Celeste. Only rich and powerful visit castles. But,” she added wistfully, “once a year doors opened for a ball in Spanish Hall.”

“So why didn’t you go then?” Celeste asked simply.

Gamma sighed. How could she explain to a child who wanted for nothing? Who was

embraced by everyone? Who had only to speak a wish to see it granted? It was the difference

between the old world and new. “At sixteen I leave Bohemia. If not, maybe one day I dance in Spanish Hall, but … not likely for poor farm girl.”

It was nearly noon when they climbed down the tower steps. Celeste’s sundress floated as she ran to see the Astronomical Clock. Gamma caught up just as the cock flapped its wings and the noon bells chimed.

“Just as you said!” Celeste said. “Those twelve apostles whizzed by before the skeleton came out. But why a skeleton in a clock?”

“To remind life is fleeting. One day we be skeletons, too, so enjoy what we can,” Gamma answered, looking at the thinning crowd and scatter of people opening lunch pails. She decided they would go to the café Kavarna Slavia, across from the National Theater, by the river where her brother used to meet his friends. “The café not built until 1881, ten years after I leave, and then became most important place for news and discussion among artists and intellectuals,” Gamma explained as they wove through cobbled side streets and alleys toward the river.

Entering the café, Celeste was surprised by the triple-height ceiling and wall of windows flanking the L-shaped room. Like wide-opened eyes, the tall sheets of glass burst with light, framing the river, the theater, and the never-ending procession of passersby. Already half-past noon, the café was crowded and buzzing as they waited for a table.

Gamma amused herself by looking at the seated people: some aristocrats, some laborers, some politicians. She could tell by their cut of clothes; a good mix of young and old with quite a few students and artists. Smoke twined up to the ceiling as everyone ate, drank and talked, waving their hands in the air, tossing their heads, shaking a fist now and again. She was glad to see her people’s zest for conversation was still as invigorating and substantial as their stews.

While Gamma watched the diners, Celeste explored the waiting area, drawn to a large bulletin board boasting items for sale, apartments to rent and situations wanted. Among the wall of messages, she found a large, colorful poster, glinting with gold. On it was a sketch of Prague Castle, encircled by dancing couples. Chewing the inside of her lip, she concentrated on translating its message. Then she spun on her heel, rushing to Gamma and pulling her to the poster.

“I think there’s going to be a ball! At the Castle! In just a few days. Středa: that’s Wednesday, right? Five days from today?”

Still flustered by Celeste’s sudden scurry, Gamma tried to focus on the poster, studying it

carefully.

Celeste could not wait for her answer. “Pražský Hrad: that’s the castle, right?” She pointed to another word. “And Španĕlský Sál: Spanish Hall?” Celeste’s voice cracked with exuberance.

Gamma placed a hand on Celeste’s shoulder to calm her while fighting her own rising excitement and fluttering stomach. Slowly reading the poster again so as not to make a mistake, she translated each word aloud. “The Citizens of Prague Are Invited to a Summer Solstice Ball 8 PM Wednesday, 13 August 1930, Spanish Hall, Prague Castle.” Gamma froze, afraid to move for fear the poster would disappear, like a dream upon waking. Turning to Celeste, she felt like a child at a shop window full of every delectable she craved. What a surprise to feel this way again so late in life; emotions pitching between dreamy desire and unfettered abundance. The same flush of excitement she felt when seeing Charles Dickens in a London pub and her first glimpse of New York City from the harbor and the ruddy, sweet face of her firstborn. Barely breathing, she stood stock still while Celeste saw confirmation roll across her face.

With a whoop, Celeste swung up her arms and twirled, her skirt swinging high around her knees. The café hostess looked up, frowning, and several nearby diners glanced in surprise. Grabbing her grandmother’s shoulders, Celeste shivered all over, tapping her feet. “It’s true then, isn’t it? There is going to be a ball at Spanish Hall! Just what you’ve always wanted to do, and here we are, only a few days away. Oh, can we go, Gamma? May we, please? Oh don’t you see we must? The ball could change everything. It must be our fate! We could take a later ship, couldn’t we? Oh Gamma, can we find a way? Can We? Please? Say yes, oh, please!”

¤

Chapter Five: THE HOWES

THE HOWES

August 9, 1930

 At the shrill ring of the doorbell, Myrtle’s hands jerked out of the wash water and nearly dropped a plate. Who could be calling? She’d made no appointments this evening. Looking out the kitchen window, she yelled to her husband kneeling in the vegetable garden. “Martin, the doorbell’s ringing.”

“Well, answer it,” he yelled back, without getting up.

She sniffed, giving her shoulders a shake. Of course she’d answer it. All she wanted was his speculation, a bit of chitchat. Ever since Gamma and Celeste departed for Europe three weeks ago, the house had been deadly silent. Martin seemed perfectly content reading and gardening when he wasn’t at the store. But after several weeks of his terse comments: “Good morning … nice meal … love some coffee … Good night,” Myrtle would have welcomed even Gamma’s silly prattle. Thank goodness her girl would be home in a week.

Wiping her hands on a striped linen towel, Myrtle removed her apron, laid it on the back of a chair and primped her hair as she walked to the front hallway. Taking a deep breath, she pushed back her shoulders and pulled open the door, ready to present her most chipper self – until she saw the telegram uniform, and her face dropped flat.

“What are you doing here?” She blurted, unable to conceal her upset. Telegrams were never good news. Telegrams were for deaths and tragedies. Her mind flew through a dozen ways her daughter could be in danger or harmed in a foreign land. Oh, why had she agreed to let her go? This must be a mistake. He’s come to the wrong address.

“Telegram for Mr. and Mrs. Howe,” the tall, clean-cut boy announced, holding out the yellow envelope and clipboard for her signature.

“No. You can’t mean us. Just a minute.” Myrtle halfway shut the door and called to the back of the house. “Martin, come this instant.” Her cry carried out to the garden and beyond.

Dropping his trowel, Martin huffed up the back steps, roughly pulling off his garden boots at the porch door, and called back: “What’s happened?”

She came to him, her eyes wide and cheeks white, looking ghostly through the screen. “It’s a telegram,” she whispered hoarsely.

Martin recognized his wife’s distress, but he was a practical man, a hardware merchant, anchored in the nuts and bolts of things; a man who dealt with facts as they came along. He softened his voice to calm her. “Well, where is it? What does it say?”

“I don’t know. I’m scared.”

“Awfff, Myrtle, I’m standing in my stocking feet and covered with dirt. Do you want me to track through the house?”

“No.”

“Then go get the telegram and bring it to me.”

The young man standing on the front porch listened to the Howe’s exchange. His summer job with the Hartford Telegram office had involved all sorts of reactions to his deliveries. In the wealthy homes, telegrams were a matter of course. His own mother used them as a primary means of communication, especially with her eldest son, who traveled the world on company business. It was a matter of convenience. At the Hartford Playhouse on opening night, telegrams poured in, were torn open on the spot and read aloud with joyous abandon while he waited for a signature. These well wishing messages always gave him a happy jolt, and the theater people were big tippers. But among the regular folk he’d noticed the fear a telegram could engender. More often than not, the news was good: a baby born or the time of someone’s arrival or word of an important discovery from far away. He’d seen all kinds of messages this summer. It was the most interesting job he’d ever had. But he didn’t like delivering bad news and wasn’t sure what was in the envelope he held.

Returning to the front door, Myrtle roughly pulled it open. She was not going to let Martin show her up silly. Snatching the yellow envelope, she slit it open with her fingernail and quickly scanned the page, steeled for a plunging knife to the heart.

“What?” She yelped. “They’re not coming home?”

Having brushed off his pants, Martin entered the living room.

Leaving the boy standing in the doorway, Myrtle turned to her husband. “I can’t believe this. What nerve your mother has!” She grasped the paper with both hands to read aloud. “All is well. Stop. Delayed return. Stop. Attending Castle Ball Wednesday. Stop. Sailing from Antwerp Aug 16. Stop. SS Belgenland. Stop. Arrive NYC Aug 22. Stop. Archduke Stephan Hotel Prague. Final stop.” Looking at her husband with reddened cheeks and angry eyes, Myrtle yelled. “WHO does SHE think she IS?!?!”

The sudden shout caused the boy to jump. Peeking around the open door he saw Mrs. Howe snapping the telegram in the air as she paced across the room.

“I gave your mother permission to take Celeste to Europe for a month. A month! Right in the middle of the social season! She promised to be back in time for the Regatta. The Regatta! The one event where everyone who’s anyone attends and a must to secure an invitation to the Cotillion.” Myrtle stopped and turned to her husband, nostrils flared. “But now Celeste is going to miss it for a ball at Prague Castle? What nonsense! And besides, if anyone should take Celeste to her first ball, it should be her own mother. Of all the nerve! I could just scream.”

Shifting nervously by the door, the boy waited for his clipboard to be signed, but the news brightened his face. This was Celeste’s home, the prettiest girl in town. Not that he knew her well. He’d only seen her once or twice since returning from boarding school. But they’d actually been introduced last June at the Presbyterian Tea. Recalling her shy smile and dancing eyes, he felt warmed. “Celeste is in Prague?” he asked, unable to stop himself and ignoring the rules of protocol. His boss had repeatedly warned him to remain detached, as telegrams can cause lethal reactions. But standing on Celeste’s doorstep compelled him. “My older brother’s in Prague right now, too!” he offered without thinking.

Myrtle was in such a stew she didn’t realize who was speaking. “I don’t care if the Pope is in Prague right now!” she addressed the air. “My daughter was supposed to be home next Friday and I …want …her …home …next …Friday! Martin? Do you hear me?”

The teakettle began whistling full blast from the kitchen, and Myrtle continued her tirade unabated as she stomped down the hall. Crossing to the front door, Martin silently reached for the clipboard and signed the confirmation line. Handing it back to the boy, he studied his face. “Are you a Meaden?” he asked. There were few people in town he didn’t recognize. Over three decades since opening the hardware store, he’d come to know all the families in town and the surrounding area. The Meadens were among the most prominent and their features distinctive: strong chins, high foreheads, narrow eyes, with thick locks of black hair. A family long established in the insurance trade and excellent customers of Howe Hardware and Goods.

“Yes sir,” the boy stood straighter. “Ron Meaden, sir. Pleased to meet you.”

They shook hands.

“I haven’t seen you at school functions. How do you know Celeste?”

“Oh, no sir. I attend St. Andrews in New Hampshire, but I met your daughter at the church Social Tea last June. We were both servers.”

Martin Howe nodded, reaching into his pocket. “Well, thank you for bringing the telegram. Sorry for the fuss.” He handed Ron a folded dollar bill, and the boy’s eyes widened. He started to protest.

“No,” Martin interrupted “For all your trouble.” He winked.

Ron slid the bill into his pants pocket, touched his cap and said goodnight.

Watching the boy stride down the walkway, Martin called after him. “Ah, by the way, which brother is in Prague?”

“James, sir. The eldest.”

Martin nodded, waved and closed the door.

~

By the time Ron arrived home that evening, supper was finished, but his mother kept a plate warm for him. Joining her son at the dining table, Estelle smoothed the tablecloth and gracefully lowered herself onto her chair at the end. She did not believe in the custom of sitting to her husband’s right. Born to wealth, she assumed an equal position on all matters of her household, taking the lead on most. Ron held the back of her chair as she rustled into place, adjusting her skirt and pearls. Then he sat to her right and began to eat.

A regal woman with gentle features, Estelle savored her youngest child’s gusto. There were so few days left to enjoy the mundane routine with him before he was gone again to school. She knew his future was better served by attending boarding school, but she missed him terribly. Not one of her four other sons or her daughter had been as attentive to her. Or perhaps it was she who had not been as attentive to them. But something about Ron tripped her heartstrings, like falling in love at first sight. “Not so fast, dear,” she mentioned quietly. “You’ll upset your stomach. Now,” she tapped the tips of her fingers together, “what happened today? Anything exciting?”

Ron’s eyes glowed as he finished chewing. “Celeste Howe is in Prague.”

His mother’s eyebrows rose slightly. “That pretty blond girl from tea?”

“That’s the one.” He could see Celeste’s rosy cheeks in his mind’s eye. “She’s there with her grandmother. They were supposed to return on Saturday, but they’re staying to attend a ball at Prague Castle.”

Estelle’s lips pursed as she nodded. “Of Howe Hardware, hmmm.” How curious to have Celeste’s name come up now, just when she’d been considering the list of potential debutantes for the coming season. She knew the Howes were excellent shopkeepers, but she had overlooked their young daughter. “How old is she now?”

“Must be seventeen, like me,” he replied. “She’ll be a senior this fall so, geez … I wish …” His mother waited for him to complete his sentence, but he chewed in silence, knowing his wish was ungrantable.

Estelle’s eyes softened as she appraised her tall son, still a bit gangly with stringy limbs, though his face was filling out. She most loved the thick fringe of lashes curling around his green eyes. Most unusual for a boy and as a baby he’d often been mistaken for a girl. “I wish you could stay home, too,” Estelle answered for her son. “I ache when you are away, wondering what you do each day.” Reaching over, she petted his arm. “And I long to hear your adventures first hand. But …” she pulled back, folding her hands together on the table. “Your father and brothers were well-served by attending St. Andrew’s, for both Yale and business.”

Ron nodded, having heard the explanation repeatedly from his parents, uncles and grandparents.

“And with your squash abilities …” His mother added before her voice trailed off, thinking of the hundreds of spirited squash matches she’d watched over the years. All of her children, even Beatrice, were mad about the game, but none was as gifted as Ron. As a pipsqueak he’d demonstrated a natural grace and unswerving deftness in smashing an unreturnable ball. First, Beatrice taught him what she knew, and when Ron was seven and big enough to play his brothers, he beat them handily. Soon he was the undisputed champ in local tournaments. St. Andrew’s, which had spawned quite a few squash champions, was the very best place for boys who loved the game. As she silently mused, she saw Ron looking down at his plate, chewing small bites of pot roast with slumped shoulders. Normally, she would correct his posture, but tonight she wanted a bit of cheer. “Let’s play the game,” she offered. “If you didn’t have to go away to school, what would you do instead?”

Ron sat up. “Make friends with Celeste Howe.”

“You like her that much from just one meeting?”

Ron nodded. “Mother, I think she’s the kindest girl I’ve ever met.”

“And what is she doing in Prague?”

“I don’t know. Her grandmother sent a telegram about attending a ball and taking a later ship.” Ron repeated, purposefully leaving out Mrs. Howe’s upset. “Isn’t James there now?”

Estelle nodded. “Do you know the Grandmother’s name?”

“No, but she’s Mr. Howe’s mother.” Of that he was sure.

Estelle nodded again. It should be easy enough to find out.

Clearing his dishes to the kitchen, Ron washed his plate and cup, setting them in the drying rack. Although his mother repeatedly told him to leave it for the day maid, he didn’t like adding to Maize’s work. As the only child left in the house, he had made friends with the maids, and learned a lot from them about the town and life and housekeeping things. ‘The muck gets stuck,’ Maize chided him one morning about dishes in the sink. Had Estelle known about these talks she would have fired her instantly. Maids may be seen but not noticed.

As it was still light outside, Ron decided to head over to the park. Sometimes he’d join a ball game or find an old friend hanging around the tennis courts or swings. Since going away to prep school, he’d found it hard keeping up with town friends. But every now and again, he’d meet one who’d introduce him to someone new. That’s what he always hoped for, the chance to make new friends.

Kissing Ron’s forehead before he left, Estelle went to her writing desk in the parlor. She felt a tingle inside, but wasn’t sure from what. All she knew was she wanted her eldest son to come home from his world travels and settle down, and perhaps tonight’s news could help that wish come true. Picking up a pen and sliding a piece of creamy white paper from her desk drawer, she sat down to compose. Once satisfied with her choice of words, she picked up the telephone at the edge of her desk and waited for the operator.

“Yes, Mrs. Meaden?” A dry voice inquired on the other end of the line.

“Hello Gertrude? Yes, Hello. I was wondering, could you tell me the name of Mr. Howe’s mother? Yes, of Howe Hardware. Bertra? Ahh, Bertra Howe. Lovely. Thank you. Now, would you kindly connect me with the telegraph office?” While waiting for the connection, Estelle lightly tapped her cheek with the end of her pearled pen. “Ahh yes, hello. This is Estelle Meaden. … Ron’s mother, yes. … Very well, thank you. I’d like to send a telegram. Yes. To Hotel Archduke Stephan in Prague. Yes. To Mr. James Austin Meaden II. Yes. The message is: Neighbors Bertra Howe and granddaughter Celeste attending Prague Ball. Full Stop. No, that is all. He’ll know what to do. Yes, thank you.” Replacing the telephone receiver, Estelle tapped her fingertips on the polished burled wood, smiling, staring off into the cooling evening air.

¤

Chapter Six: THE BALL

THE BALL

August 9-13, 1930

 By the time they finished their lunch, Gamma had agreed to stay for the ball. Promptly leaving the café, they walked directly to her favorite hotel. “The most elegant in Prague,” she told Celeste. “And your grandfather’s choice, to celebrate my forty years.”

As they crossed the wide boulevard of Wenceslas Square, a trail of ivy geraniums fluttering against yellow stucco lifted Celeste’s eyes. Raspberry petals and dark mossy leaves entwined the iron balconies of the Hotel Archduke Stephan. Pointing a gloved finger, Celeste declared: “Those rooms must be the loveliest.” As the uniformed doorman tipped his hat and swept open the enormous door, she felt puffed full of helium, ready to float away, but quickly came down to earth as she stepped into a lobby more beautiful than she could have dreamed. “Like a church,” she thought, circling the room with her eyes, trying to absorb everything at once. The tall columns and archways, the ornate iron staircase railing, the scatter of demure tables and chairs, the muffled hubbub from the café and a heavenly shaft of light pouring from the atrium in the middle of the lobby, washing every floor in hues of yellow-white.

Undistracted, Gamma walked to the reception desk and pulled off her gloves. The desk clerk was turned away, slotting mail into small cubbyholes.

“Vezmu si u vás pokoj,” Gamma politely requested a room.

The desk clerk turned with a smile, as she had for thirty years, first as a maid and now as manager, but upon seeing Gamma she gasped. “Oh my goodness. Mrs. Howe? Were we expecting you?”

Tilting her head, Gamma studied the woman’s features, then, slowly a smile spread across her face. After her first stay at the Archduke with her husband shortly after it opened, she’d returned many times, booking a room at least one night whenever she came home. Twenty years had passed since her last visit but she wondered: could this be the girl who played in the lobby all those years ago?

“Little Greta?”

“Ano! Yes! But as you see, not so little anymore. Oh, I wish my parents were

still alive. How they loved you! Always retelling the stories you told them, but not so well. No one as good as you in that. In their honor, let me extend my best welcome.”

Across the room, standing in the center of the atrium, transfixed by the warmth bathing her upturned face, Celeste heard Gamma laugh and turned toward the desk.

Seeing the girl, Greta instantly recognized the facial similarities and drew a quick breath. “Is she your … ?”

Gamma followed her gaze and nodded.

“Ooofff! Mama would never believe!” Greta gasped, remembering how, twenty years ago, Mrs. Howe told her mother the story of her husband’s and grandchild’s sudden death and their move to Connecticut and her daughter-in-law’s barren years and the gypsy prophecy for a baby to come. For ten-year-old Greta, the prophecy was pure fascination. “The granddaughter the gypsy foretold?” Greta said then stopped herself, not wanting to overstep her bounds.

The animated expression on the desk clerk’s face drew Celeste out of the atrium’s warmth to find out what was so exciting. Passing the small tables by the window, she deliberately paid no notice to the dark-haired man who had been watching her as she examined the upper floors from the atrium’s center. As she passed, bathed in golden light, she heard him whisper.

“Perfect innocence,” he said as his fingertips made circles on the white linen.

“Dobré odpoledne!” Celeste did her best to greet the woman behind the desk.

Greta’s face burst open at Celeste’s attempt to speak Czech. She extended her broad, well-worn hand over the desktop. “Dobré odpoledne!” she said, pumping Celeste’s hand vigorously.

“Greta, I am pleased for you to meet my granddaughter, Celeste.” Gamma said, and squeezed Celeste’s shoulder. “Greta was just a baby when first I come here.”

“With Grandfather?”

“Yah! In a cradle she was, behind the desk. Imagine?”

“Oh my, yes,” Greta grinned. “My parents tell me your grandparents came the first year the hotel open and how much they love the Howes, always looking forward to their return.” Greta turned back to Gamma. “Papa thought you indulge me too much, told me not to be pesty, but I couldn’t help myself. For me, you are the most exciting person I ever met.”

“Oooffff,” Gamma brushed her hand across the desktop. “You meet Kings and Princes here, dignitaries from all Europe. How is peasant girl most exciting?

Greta nodded harder. “Just that! You came from peasant stock, same like me, and became a great lady. Gave me hope for the same, and look! Now I am first lady manager of hotel.” She fanned her arms to the grand lobby. “How far we both come from country roots.”

Gamma swallowed hard, instinctively reaching for Greta’s hands. Clasping both, she blinked several times to clear her eyes as they smiled deeply, sharing a silent bond of deep admiration and love.

Clearing her throat, Greta returned to business, her voice still rough with emotion. “So, for how long will you be with us?”

Placing her purse on the polished wood, Gamma folded her hands on top. “Until Thursday; five nights.”

Greta frowned as she scanned the reservation book. “To attend the Ball?”

“Yah! We planned to go to London tonight night, but then we see … Greta, can you tell me? Why is Ball in summer? Usually is in fall, no?”

Greta grinned. “Is true, but this is special Ball: for the poets.”

“Poets?” Gamma looked confused.

“Prague is hosting a Poets’ Conference this week. It was President Masaryk’s idea, to soften the depression. He invite poets from all over the country and Europe for a Convergence of Creativity. And poets make the Ball, for all of our citizens, to be a Moving Poem of Prague. Quite exciting, ne?

Gamma laughed, turning to Celeste. “For all my dreaming, a Poet’s Ball make it more worth the wait!” Then Gamma asked with a lilt. “Greta, have you a suite available? One with a balcony overlooking the square?”

Celeste’s eyes brightened and she quickly kissed her grandmother’s cheek.

Eager to please her favorite guest, Greta scoured the reservation book. It would not be easy, but she would find a way.

“And the name of a good seamstress?” Gamma added.

Across the lobby, the elegantly dressed man with a wave of dark hair finished his coffee and dabbed his lips with a small white cloth. He could not take his eyes off the girl at the desk. Who might she be, he wondered? The older woman spoke fluent Czech, but their dress was decidedly not Czechoslovakian, so perhaps a foreign poet’s daughter? Tucking his napkin under the saucer, he rose, admiring the young girl’s hushed but attentive demeanor as the two women spoke. She’s fresh, like a spring shower with the sun shining, he thought, then shuttered his mind to such futile idleness. Crossing the lobby with a purposeful gait, he placed a large woven key tassel on the desktop, averting his eyes from the clerk.

“Thank you,” Greta smiled, slipping the key into one of many small cubbies behind her, and called after him: “Enjoy your afternoon, Mr. Meaden.”

Upon hearing the name, Gamma and Celeste both swiveled, but caught only a glimpse of the tall man striding out the door.

~

After settling in their suite, they began making new arrangements. Before sending a telegram home, they met with the concierge to exchange their sailing passages. It was he who suggested the Red Star Line departure from Antwerp in Belgium instead of Le Havre in France.

“A much shorter train ride to Brussels,” he informed them, “and more time in Prague, should you wish. We could arrange for a hotel in Brussels for Friday, for a Saturday boarding. However,” with a trill in his throat, he added, “Should you wish to stay a little longer, Prague now has international air service to Brussels.” The pride in the concierge’s voice matched Celeste’s squeal at the possibility of a ride in an airplane, but Gamma said she would have to think about it.

~

With the shops closed on Sunday, they spent the day sorting out their clothes for possible ball attire. Sprawling each item in their trunk across the room, they considered every possibility: Blouses, skirts, dresses, shoes, stockings, gloves, crinolines, scarves, shawls, jewelry and hair adornments. Gamma had packed several simple evening dresses for the sailing that would serve quite well, spruced up with the hand-embroidered shawl she’d purchased in Paris. But all of Celeste’s dresses were tea length, so they would have to find her a gown.

A knock on the door ushered in their afternoon tea.

“I’ll set it up on the balcony,” Celeste volunteered as Gamma lifted her carpet satchel to the bed.

“OK, I be right out.” Gamma said, opening her carryall for the first time since leaving the farm. Immediately she was puzzled by the square package of brown paper and string, sitting on top. Feeling its light softness, her body flushed hot. Could it be? Untying the coarse string, she unfolded the paper and gasped. She had not looked upon the Crying Green Heart pillow for thirty years, not since she’d given it to her sister in recompense for the suffering her foolishness had caused. Who would have kept this heartbreak? Who would have saved it from being burned? Why had it been set out for Celeste to see? And for what purpose was it placed in her satchel if not to torment her? Only one name came to mind: Lidia, who had never forgotten or forgiven her tragic mistake.

“Gamma, the tea’s getting cold,” Celeste called from the balcony.

Snapping upright, Gamma swallowed the pillow with its wrapper as her eyes swept the room for a place to hide it. Under the bed? In the wardrobe? Behind the chair? Every spot could be easily found, if not by Celeste then certainly the maid. Nothing in the room was secure. The trash shoot, she thought, and reached for the door to the hallway when Celeste called again.

“Gamma, come quick. There’s a parade! Schoolgirls carrying signs and chanting poems.”

“Yah, yah,” Gamma replied as she scanned the room once again before stuffing the wrapped pillow behind the armoire, safe enough from discovery until she could throw it away.

She joined Celeste on the balcony overlooking the square, and together they watched the girls in their pinafores, waving signs and chanting down the street and around the corner. Once they were out of sight, Celeste sighed. Her mind had been full of questions about the Ball all day long and she now felt panicked.

“Who will I dance with?” She blurted. “I don’t know anyone!”

Still disturbed about the pillow, Gamma half heard her and shook her head. “Balls have a magic all their own. You’ll see.”

But the answer did not assuage Celeste, and she whispered into her cup, “But what if no one wants to dance with me?”

Looking at her beautiful granddaughter, face white with concern, Gamma could not help but laugh – long and loud enough for the doorman to hear and look up, three floors below.

~

On Monday they rose early, heading directly to Soukenická Lane, where all the dressmaking and tailor shops were clustered.

“Is where Auntie Mae want to apprentice me,” Gamma said as they began wandering in and out of the shops, eyeing fashions and fingering bolts of cloth. Modeling gown after gown, Celeste endured poking and prodding and checking for fit from both Gamma and the clerks until they found the perfect dress and a seamstress for alterations.

Although ready for a nap, Celeste dutifully followed Gamma as she briskly set off down the stone street toward Cobbler’s Lane, in search of dancing shoes.

“Why are all the dress shops on one street and the cobblers on another?” Celeste asked, huffing to keep up. Gamma explained the expansion of Prague in 1348 by King Charles, who solved the cramped, noisy quarters of the old city boundaries by creating a ‘new city’ for the artisans and craftsmen outside the city walls.

“So now, one street for butchers, another for rope makers, another for carpenters and blacksmith and foundries and tanneries and furriers and potters and cloth weavers and shoes. Easy way to find best item at best price, no?”

Celeste only nodded as she scurried to keep up with Gamma’s stride.

~

On Tuesday, after no luck with the local cobblers and too late to have a custom pair made, Greta recommended they travel to a shoemaker in the countryside who specialized in dancing slippers. Fortunately, he had one pair in Celeste’s size. They also procured two pairs of long gloves and a crystal necklace and earring set for Celeste from a shop near the cobblers before racing back to the dressmakers in the city for a second fitting.

~

On Wednesday, the day of the ball, the dress was delivered late morning and the hotel arranged for a hairdresser to come to their suite in the late afternoon. While Celeste was taking a bath to soothe her nerves, she heard a knock on the door. Bolting up from the water, she cried, “That can’t be the hairdresser! I’m not ready!” Listening hard, she heard the heavy oak door of their suite open and Gamma murmur but no other voice or telltale rustle of anyone’s arrival. Chewing her lower lip, Celeste waited for the thunk of the door closing before yelling, “Who was it, Gamma?” Her voice echoed off the marble and porcelain fixtures in the bath.

Opening the door, Gamma held out a nosegay of white violets. “And admirer you have,” she said with a lilt in her voice.

Celeste’s eyes widened as she slipped her hand out of the bubbles to hold it.   “Who?” she asked, smelling the violets.

“No card, but in flower language, white violet means youthful innocence. So, perhaps your father? He is good at petal messages, like your grandfather. After every spat he sent me white tulips, for forgiveness, even when is my fault.”

Celeste remembered when Gamma taught her the language of flowers a couple of summers past. She’d laughed so hard at Gamma’s stories about the conversations she’d carry on with her husband using the flower code. Then Gamma gave her a book on the subject and she’d looked up all her favorites: white zinnias for goodness, yellow zinnias for daily remembrance, weeping willows for mourning, ranunculus for radiant charm, bachelor buttons for anticipation, azaleas for abundance, peonies for healing and lavender roses for love at first sight.

“So it was Papa?” Celeste asked.

“Who else knows we’re here?” Gamma countered.

The hairdresser arrived at the appointed hour and wove Celeste’s long tresses into a crowning braid, decorated with a scatter of small white flowers and tiny crystals and soft curling tendrils edging her neck and face. She lightly blushed and powdered Celeste’s already flushed face, leaving a tin of rouge for her lips. Gamma then insisted Celeste eat a proper meal, as the night would be long and who knew if there would be anything to nibble besides heady wine and sweets. Celeste took a long time eating her noodles and stew, but Gamma paid no mind to her dawdle. When she finally finished, it was time to dress.

Walking into her room as an excited girl, Celeste emerged a radiant young woman, swathed in a gown of pale yellow silk, dotted with small, periwinkle stars. She glowed, her face perfectly framed by the portrait collar wrapping her shoulders and her youthful curves hugged by the slim bodice. With a periwinkle belt cinching her waist, the skirt fell into soft, luminous folds, dancing over a light crinoline. As Celeste slid on her long white gloves, Gamma caught a glimpse of a woman beneath her girlish face.

“I love how it feels against my legs,” Celeste giggled. “The silk sashays like a train.” Then she insisted on walking down the three flights of stairs, enjoying the weight of her dress as it dropped behind her, step to step.

As Gamma walked out of the lift in the lobby, looking regal in her Parisian embroidered shawl, she realized she was not the only witness to Celeste’s grand descent; gliding down the stairway, head held high, one hand glazing the banister as the other held her nosegay. On the last step, Celeste paused, surveying the crowd, then nodded to Gamma before swishing across the polished floor, commanding the eye of every man and woman in the lobby.

As Gamma laid their room key on the reception desk, Greta beamed.

“Did she like the nosegay?” She asked.

Ano, Ano, but from who? I find no card.”

Vím, no card from the florist. I check. A secret admirer, perhaps?”

“Hmmgh,” Gamma murmured, not liking such an idea, and turned to see Celeste standing serenely by the door, awaiting their carriage.

~

Riding through the cobblestone streets, traveling past the icons of Prague’s past grandeur to the methodical clop of the horse’s hooves, Gamma slipped into a reverie.

Up on the hill, surrounding the castle, she could see the aristocrats’ palatial homes, constructed in the 1600’s and continuously remodeled in a centuries-long game of one-upsmanship. Chuckling, she realized the nobles of old were not much different from her Connecticut neighbors. She also admired the many churches they passed, home to the hearts of rich and poor alike. What spirits live in the rocky bluffs upon which Prague was built that called all freedom seeking souls? It had always been so, long before it became the seat of the Holy Roman Empire in the Gothic and Renaissance eras, and well before Queen Libuse reigned in 900 AD. Something in this soil and air drew her ancient people and kept calling for her own return. A place even mavericks could call home, doing what they believed to be right and true, despite the mighty will of the ever changing rulers who tried to control the land and people. Where else but Prague would a brotherhood of monks risk offending the church by offering Holy Communion to the common folk in 1414? And despite its history of warring monarchs and religious battles, it was a jewel still. Over the centuries, innovation and pride poured out of its people in the creation of clocks, bridges, towers and, most of all, art – the heart of Prague’s bounty. Though the art was regularly stolen at the end of countless wars, the Bohemians would simply start again, creating and collecting. In Prague, there was no end to the enjoyment and value of art, the essence of   her homeland’s soul.

Gamma sighed aloud to stop the chatter in her head. It was the same conversation she had every time she came, a private travelogue. As they trotted along the Charles Bridge, a chill swept across her shoulders. Looking up the hill, Gamma’s heart pounded. Every window glowed around the castle walls and in the surrounding houses. The whole city was on tiptoes tonight, and she felt a rippling in her chest.

What if I hadn’t left Bohemia when I did?   She silently wondered. Would I have been lucky enough to apprentice at one of the shops on Cloth Makers Lane? And still be alive on this night, tailoring another woman’s gown for the Ball? Or might I have been a chambermaid at a hotel even half as nice as the Archduke and worked my way up to front desk, as did Greta? Or would my fate have remained on the farm, caring for my parents and an early death, as did all my sisters?   It was impossible, Gamma knew, to calculate the innumerable gems bestowed upon her for having taken a chance, leaping where others hesitated. On this night, yet another precious stone was being added to her life’s crown. A ball at Prague Castle seemed more than she deserved after having already enjoyed abundant servings of life’s ice cream and cake. But to share this dream with her beloved granddaughter was a joy inexpressibly complete.

Passing Loreto Church just below the castle gates, the Bohemian Hymn to Mary chimed from the steeple’s glockenspiel as it had since the 17th century. At the first note, Celeste’s hands flew out of her lap.   Try as she had to remain calm and mature, she could hold back no more.

“Oh, Gamma, I’m going to burst! What will we do first?” she implored.

Gamma turned with quiet eyes. “I have no idea. Is new for me, too.”

As the carriage rolled to a stop a dozen feet before the castle steps, waiting for other carriages to empty, Celeste craned her neck out of the carriage.

“Just a few minutes more, Miss,” the driver told her.

Celeste leaned out a little farther, then suddenly pulled back, turned to Gamma and whispered, aghast, “There are clowns up ahead!”

“Clowns?” Gamma laughed. “Clowns at the castle?”

“Well,” Celeste peeked out again, “men with funny hats, helping the ladies up the steps.”

With a lurch, their carriage moved forward, then stopped. They had arrived. A tall man with a beard and an enormous jester’s hat boldly announced their arrival to his compatriots on the steps. “Ho, HO! Look, my fairy gentlemen, at the beauty here!”

He spoke so quickly in Czech that Celeste could not understand. She rose as he opened the carriage door, swept off his hat and bowed. Extending his hand, he helped her down the carriage step, passing her to another man wearing a tall, stovepipe hat who also loudly exclaimed, “Indeed, good sir, is truth you speak! Here be the original model for such famous beauties as Helena and Aphrodite.” He offered the crook of his arm to guide her up the steps.

Celeste hesitated, turning to Gamma, who was speaking with the jester. “Gamma, what are they saying?” she implored.

Gamma laughed, shooing her forward. “An ode to your beauty! Now go. Go! Up the steps! Into the hall! The poets lead the way. When you are a muse, adoration pours.”

Celeste blinked, then giggled and waved to Gamma before clasping the poet’s waiting arm. Lifting her skirt high, she climbed the wide stone steps   and entered Spanish Hall, where the glint of gold and white-diamond sparkle swept away her breath and set her soul afire.   ¤

Chapter Seven: EDE

EDE

August 13, 1930

 “Yoo hoo! Mrs. Howe, Hello. Anybody home? Hello, it’s Eee-Dee.” Standing on the front porch, the tall girl balanced a stack of oversized paper on one hand while knocking with the other. The screen door rattled under her sharp raps. She peered in. Only cool, damp air greeted her. She could smell remnants of tobacco and wood polish but nothing simmering on the stove, which was odd because Mrs. Howe always started supper by three or four. Turning quickly to go check the backyard, her long skirt twisted and tangled in her gangly legs. Clasping the papers with both hands, she jumped off the stoop, freeing her legs, and dashed around the house, where she found Mrs. Howe standing in the middle of the vegetable garden, holding a half-filled basket of tomatoes.

“Hey, Mrs. Howe, want some help?” Without waiting for a reply, Ede scooted up the back steps, dropped her papers on a wicker table and then leapt off the porch to the garden gate. Admiring the plump tomatoes on the vine, she picked a small one and bit it in half. “Wow. Quel delicioso,” she said. “These tomatoes are magnifico!

It was just the kind of comment that made Myrtle cringe. For the dozen years she’d known the girl, she tried very hard to like her because Ede was Celeste’s best friend. But her mannerisms made Myrtle uneasy. Too much like the immigrants she’d gown up with in New York City. Too much a reminder of her shanty past, and she didn’t want that influence on her daughter. So when the girls had a falling out last spring and stopped seeing each other, she was relieved. But Ede wouldn’t let go. Indefatigable, she kept appearing at their door, like a penny bright, with energy to burn.

“Hello, Ede.” Myrtle sighed. “Has a brush seen that head of yours today?”

Finishing the tomato with a slurp, Ede laughed. “You know it has, Mrs. Howe. But this mop gets tangled as soon as I walk out the door.” Grabbing a fistful of thick black hair off her back, Ede twisted it into a knot. “I can’t wait ’til Celeste gets home on Friday; I’ve got so much to tell her.” She pointed to the stack of papers on the porch. “I made her a painting. A welcome home sign. Plus, they’ll be perfect for her needlepoint designs. She’s been badgering me to paint them forever!”

Ede’s blast of personality always startled Myrtle, and the intensity seemed to increase since she’d begun teaching an art class at the local club, a development that set all the tongues a-wagging. How could a sixteen-year-old girl know enough about art to teach anyone? And an immigrant at that! Never-the-less, everyone signed up to see if the girl’s talent was as good as her father’s, and the initial reviews were excellent.

“Temperance, Ede.” Myrtle chided. “Too much enthusiasm by the artist can dampen the client’s.” Myrtle snapped handfuls of green beans off a vine. “But I’m sorry to say, Celeste won’t be home this Friday.”

Panic washed across Ede’s chest, instantly summoning the fear she had felt as a three-year-old crossing the ocean from Italy with her father in 1917. The war had not yet ended, but Ede and her father were desperate to be reunited with her American-born mother, who had returned home before the war began to care for her own mother. They had jumped at the first chance to reunite with her, regardless of the danger. Ede now felt that same desperation for Celeste’s return. She had been counting each lonely day since Celeste left, especially as they’d just made up after a stupid fight, their only one since meeting in dance class as five-years-olds. Nothing had ever come between them, until Celeste insisted on taking Ede’s art class, even though Ede had already shown her everything she knew. It had gone alright until the student exhibition. Ede was admiring Celeste’s entry when a man approached, completely ignored Celeste’s work and flattered Ede, telling her how much he admired her father’s paintings and how she had an ‘‘obvious talent,’’ too. As if slapped in the face, Celeste was stunned into a sullen silence until the man moved on. Then she turned on Ede.

“You think you’re so good, miss arty pants, but you’re not so special,” she hissed, surprising them both “You’re just stuck up, and I don’t like stuck-up girls.” Flouncing away, Celeste did not look back to see Ede’s face turn ashen. And that was that. Celeste stopped walking to school with Ede and eating lunch with her and took up with another group of girls for the rest of the spring. It broke Ede’s heart. Having no idea why Celeste was so upset, she’d cried for a week straight. Then she began stopping by Celeste’s house after school, only to have Mrs. Howe repeatedly say Celeste was busy. She’d lost not only her best friend, but her only friend. Because while Celeste was cute and popular; Ede was a tall foreigner, and stuck out with her odd dress and odder artist parents in their upright Connecticut town. Then, just when Ede thought it was hopeless, she chanced to meet Gamma at the park, and the old woman told her of their travel plans. “Come see her off,” Gamma urged, letting Ede know when they were leaving. “She’d love it more than she knows.” Early on the morning of the ship’s departure, Ede skipped up the street to the Howe’s’ house, peace offering in hand: A hand-stapled pad of sketch paper tied with a ribbon and a freshly whittled drawing pencil she’d snitched from her father’s drafting table. “Sketch what you see, and I’ll paint it for you.” Ede whispered, slipping the package into her friend’s hands. Celeste’s face, icy at first, melted in unfettered joy. Without another word, the girls clung to each other until Mr. Howe insisted it was time to go. Waving ’til the car was out of sight, Ede felt certain all would be right again, once Celeste returned.

Ede shook her head to clear it and looked at Mrs. Howe with scared eyes. “What happened? Did something go wrong?” her voice wobbled.

“Did something go wrong?” Myrtle sputtered. “Well, I certainly think so, but Mr. Howe disagrees.” Myrtle brushed aside a few strands of hair that escaped her tight bun, looking at the sky. “What time is it? A bit after 3?”

Ede looked up and nodded.

“Well then, at this moment I suppose Celeste is dancing at Prague Castle. For some crazy reason her grandmother decided to extend their trip to attend a ball. So they won’t even set sail until Saturday and won’t be home until Friday next.”

With exaggerated relief, Ede’s arms swung to the sky as she twirled around, plopping on the porch steps. “A ball?! Oh, wow!” she exclaimed, oblivious to Myrtle’s frown. “At a castle in Prague? Quel Magnifico!” Her head filled with visions of bejeweled women and dashing gentlemen. She’d seen such spectacles at the club, peeking through the windows when she was young and in the ballroom itself when she was old enough to be a server. She had been transfixed by the gowns and glowing lights and white gloves and flying coattails as the men whirled their ladies around the room. “OK. Then I’ll paint a picture of a ball for Celeste. That will make the time zoom by.”

Wiping her hands on her apron, Myrtle stepped past Ede, heading for the kitchen. “Before you go off, what about these papers?” she asked.

Ede leapt to the porch, scooped up her artwork and followed Myrtle into the house. “A surprise for Celeste. Can I put them up in her room?”

Myrtle set her basket next to the sink. “What is it?” She did not ask out of politeness; Ede’s art was a topic of interest among her friends. She might procure a valuable bit of gossip for her tea chats.

Dropping the stack on the kitchen table, Ede carefully unfolded the top flap, revealing a large painting of flowers.

“A bed of flowers.” Myrtle acknowledged dryly. “Not your usual style.”

“No!” Ede said, happy Mrs. Howe noticed. “Because it’s for Celeste.” Ede picked up each page to reveal a dozen watercolors. “I made the flowers as real as possible because that’s what she likes – even though I usually paint the essence, not the reality – as papa always advises.”

“Mmmm.” To Myrtle, each page looked too much like the others.

“I thought since Celeste loves flowers as much as needlepointing, I’d paint your garden so maybe she’d be inspired to needlepoint a pillow of it. That way, even in winter, she’d always have her garden near.”

“Very nice,” Myrtle murmured.

“So can I put them in her room?”

Myrtle moved to the sink. “Go on. Mind you, don’t mar the wallpaper.”

Snatching up her papers, Ede banged up the stairs.

~

Alone, Myrtle carefully washed each vegetable, enjoying the routine of food preparation. Unlike her friends with maids to avoid the daily drudgery, Myrtle found a medicinal tonic in cooking. A time to think on the day’s events and consider what she’d like to accomplish next. But today Ede’s presence muddled her. The girl’s energy and unflagging joy brought attention to how different her own youth had been, even though they were both of immigrant parents. Though Myrtle kept her past secret from her Gladdenbury friends, she could never fully escape the memory of her family’s noisy, scruffy household with more cursing and cuffing than laughter. The horror of life in the filthy New York tenements, surrounded by the stench of glue factories and turpentine distilleries, still made her shudder. As did the visceral memory of her father’s rough hands and body odor, redolent of factory sweat and beer. What she’d endured she never wanted anyone to know, especially her daughter. But today, watching the light on Ede’s face as she spoke of her painting, she wondered what life might have become if she, too, had something special, something more than her body and sharp wits. If she had an obvious talent like Ede’s art, how much different might she and her life have been?

A thumping down the steps interrupted Myrtle’s reverie.

Stomping into the kitchen, Ede wore a wide grin. Myrtle blinked, having forgotten Ede was in the house.

“Where have you been?” she asked as Ede drew a glass of water from the faucet.

“Putting up Celeste’s surprise,” Ede answered simply. Noticing the platter of green beans, she asked, “Can I help?”

“May I,” Myrtle corrected, pushing the platter across the table.

“Oh, sorry. May I – I always forget. Boy, do I love the snap of fresh beans.”

Ede rapidly clipped off the bean top and bottom with her fingers. Myrtle said nothing, but Ede didn’t mind. She was accustomed to no response from her father as they painted together. There she’d be, jabbering away while he was lost in the color and form taking shape on his canvas. Shuffling her feet under the table, Ede felt parched for conversation, even if it was only with Mrs. Howe.

“I met a boy last week,” she began.

“Mmmm?” Myrtle’s eyebrows rose but her tone remained even. Celeste never spoke on such matters, even when repeatedly asked.

“At the park last Saturday. He was so nice to me – which is unusual, because boys … I mean … generally, boys aren’t very comfortable around me. I guess ’cause I’m so tall, but he was tall, too, so it was alright.”

Myrtle smiled. She should have this child over more often. Maybe she’d get news about her daughter, as well. “Someone new in town?” she asked sweetly.

“Yes. I mean, no. New to me, but he’s lived here all his life. He goes to boarding school in New Hampshire.”

“A nice boy?”

Ede smiled. “The nicest.” She recalled his eyes: big and green with flecks of brown and yellow and long curly lashes, like hers. The kind every girl wishes for but boys often got. “His eyes are kind,” she said. “My father taught me about eyes on the ship from Italy.”

“Oh?”

“For days and days there was nothing much to do except watch the sea or other people, so Papa showed me how eyes tell more about a person than you could ever think to ask. He said they speak in a blink.” Ede giggled, flapping her eyelids like wings, as her

father had.

“Oh my,” Myrtle scowled at her silliness.

“And for the rest of the trip we studied eyes. He told me that mean people try to hide it, opening their eyes wide to make a good impression, to look sincere,” Ede demonstrated. “But if you catch them when no one’s looking, their eyes narrow and dart, protecting their territory.” She again showed Mrs. Howe what she meant, squinting and shifting her eyes across the kitchen. “But he said the kind ones don’t do anything at all. They just stay calm and observe and you can feel their warmth, like my Nonna’s wide-open arms when I’d run up the path to see her.”

“Your Nonna?”

“My grandmother in Italy. Geez, I cant’ believe I haven’t seen her for fourteen years.” Ede handed the platter of finished beans to Mrs. Howe with a wistful stare. “I was hoping Celeste could meet him before he went back to school,” she confided. “But next Friday will be too late.”

“Who?” Myrtle asked, flicking a match to light the gas under a pot of water.

“Ron Meaden. He lives on Front Street.”

Myrtle dropped the lit match, quickly stomping it out on the floor.

Surprised by her reaction, Ede asked: “Do you know them?”

Myrtle struck another match and lit the gas burner with a whoosh. “Of course. They go to our church.” She brusquely waved out the match, suddenly remembering it was Ron Meaden who had delivered the telegram last Saturday and hadn’t he said something about his older brother being in Prague?

“Oh, well, I guess I’d better be going,” Ede said, wiping her hands on a towel. “Mama will be home from work soon, and I’ve got to get our supper on, too. So, a week from Friday?”

Myrtle barely heard Ede. “Mmm?”

Ede rocked on the sides of her shoes. “Mrs. Howe, would it be alright if I went with Mr. Howe to pick them up at the dock?”

Vaguely hearing Ede’s question, Myrtle automatically replied, wanting to be alone with her own thoughts now. “Yes, yes, fine. Now scurry on, Mr. Howe will be home soon and I’ve got to get his supper ready.”

Without a sound, Ede slipped out the back door and skipped all the way home.

~

Later that night, after serving supper, washing up and tending to some mending, Myrtle took several packages of new school clothes up to Celeste’s room. Since Ede’s mention of Ron Meaden, she couldn’t stop thinking about the possibility of Celeste bumping into his older brother, James, in Prague. She’d asked Martin about it, but he said he didn’t know. How odd and strange to have the very person she’d most hoped her daughter to meet in the same city at the same time, thousands of miles away. Maybe it was a sign, she thought, and then shook her head, unwilling to agree with Gamma in any way.

With her mind still spinning possibilities, Myrtle opened Celeste’s bedroom door. “Sweet Jesus!” she yelped, and her packages dropped to the floor as a huge, shadowy form billowed on the far side of the dim room. Shaking from tip to toe, she groped for the light switch on the inside wall, flipped it and held her breath as the overhead light revealed her monster. She blinked, not believing her eyes. Splashed across the bay window was a giant mural. An enormous reproduction of a flower garden – their flower garden, to be exact – painted to perfection. A full, life-sized replica of Gamma’s well-tended beds, draped from floor to ceiling and glowing from the soft light of the gas lanterns on the street below.

¤

Chapter Eight: ALCHEMY

 ALCHEMY

August 1930

Spanish Hall was a creamy white fairy’s world, dripping with gold trim and long chandeliers refracting halos of golden light in the tall windows and mirrors lining each side of the grand room. Transfixed, Celeste was sure she was dreaming, until Gamma whispered: “Close mouth or get in flies.” She then whistled softly. “Such elegance I never see.”

Celeste giggled, “This is what majesty means, I guess! Look at the windows!” She began to raise her arm but Gamma clamped it to her side.

“No point. Just nod in direction.”

Celeste nodded to the wall of deep-set, arched windows lining one side of the long room, rising forty feet high and flanked by ornate candelabras that matched the chandeliers. “And look,” she nodded to the opposite wall. “The mirrors are exact replicas of the windows.”

Following her granddaughter’s gaze, Gamma stared into the mirrors and the swirling colors of her city: burnt gold, midnight blue, brick red, sienna orange, burnished yellow, and henna browns. “True reflection of Prague” she murmured as satins swished alongside heavy damask and boiled cottons. Where bosoms glistened with sparkled powder and lips gleamed in every shade of rouge and men in tuxedos and tailcoats or rough-hewn suits proudly led their ladies in a whirl around the room.

~

At the far end of the hall, a woman slipped in through a door camouflaged by the mirrored wall. Dressed in heavy silk with a rope of bejeweled gold around her neck, she paused, searching the small clusters of aristocrats and special guests until she spied a man with dark wavy hair and a strong chin. Dressed in formal tails, he stood a head taller than the group of poets surrounding him, even with their hats on. Coming up beside them, she gently placed her hand on his arm, interrupting their conversation. “You were easy to find with such height, Mr. Meaden,” she spoke quietly.

James Meaden turned, bowed and brushed a soft kiss on her extended, gloved hand. “Honeysuckle?” he asked She nodded, and with a subtle turn of her chin, summoned him away. James gestured farewell to his poet companions, offered his arm to the elegant woman and crossed the hall with her at his side. As they slipped through the crowd, each cluster turned to watch them pass, their heads close together, whispering.

By a corner window, a white-bearded man in formal military dress stood on a platform, in front of two high-backed upholstered chairs. Surveying the room, he rocked on his heels, lips curved upwards, enjoying the evening’s success. As the bejeweled woman approached, his smile widened as she ascended the platform.

“Darling, there is someone I’d like you to meet,” she said quietly, kissing each cheek, then turned to the dark-haired man. ““This is Mr. James Austin Meaden the Second, from the United States. His family is in the insurance business. Mr. Meaden; President Tomáš Garrigue Masaryk.”

The President’s clipped mustache crinkled with his smile. “Vítáme vás, Mr. Meaden. Welcome to Czechoslovakia.”

“It’s a great honor to meet you, Mr. President,” James said crisply, bowing from the waist and clicking his heels.

“I’m pleased my wife could share this fine evening with a countryman,” the president said, extending his hand. “What brings you to our fair city?”

“I have long admired your dedication to your country, sir. During the war, I heard you speak at Yale. I was only fourteen, but I was quite inspired by your philosophy. Then, by chance, I met your lovely wife at mutual friends in Belgium. When she told me about the Poets’ Conference, I felt compelled to come pay homage.”

The President chuckled, shaking his head. “Don’t be too smitten, young man. I’ve done nothing another man could not, if he pays attention.” Gesturing to the behatted men in the crowd, he said, “Who you should thank are the poets: Karl Teige, Vitĕzslav Nezval, Jaroslav Seifert and František Halas. They dreamed this up. They knew what Prague needed in difficult times, and I’d have been a fool not to listen.”

“Another bit of wisdom I’m grateful to receive.” James again made a slight bow.

The President rocked back on his heels. “Artists have a stronger sense about society and where it’s going. They feel what’s coming and what’s needed, better and sooner than most. Like an Eskimo smelling snow, I suppose. A smart leader pays attention to what they see and say. In my cabinet, artists sit equal to the ministers of education, military and finance because they are all threads of the fabric with which we work.” Pulling on his beard, he repeated “All threads of the fabric. Now tell me, what really brings you to our fine country?”

~

It took only one song for the young men of Prague to spy the beautiful, unattached women gathered near the hall entrance, especially the young, lithe one. In clockwork succession, they took turns dancing with Celeste, leaving her not a moment’s rest as Gamma’s eyes followed her granddaughter’s whirling head. As the dancers glided in waltzing circles around the floor, Gamma tracked Celeste’s progression up one side of the hall, where the dignitaries and aristocrats gathered, and back down the other, where the common folk stood. Only momentarily did Gamma dare take her eyes off Celeste, to admire the President and his wife talking with a tall, familiar looking man. She didn’t know why, but something about him kept drawing her attention. After watching them longer than she intended, she turned back and was unable to find Celeste among the swaying heads. Panic seized her, and everything began to blur as her eyes switched across the room. But then she heard a scrap of Celeste’s laughter from near the punch bowl, and relief flooded her body. Sighing, she watched Celeste closely as the girl wound her way across the dancing hall with raised arms, holding her nosegay and two cups of punch above her head.

~

As James Meaden spoke with President Masaryk about his family’s business and his mission to find suitable investments, he silently calculated the valuable introductions this brief meeting would produce. He could hear his grandfather repeating his mantra: “‘Get to know the top chief and see how fast doors open.’’ Meeting Charlotte Masaryk in Belgium last week had been good fortune. In his early days on the international circuit such a coincidence would have surprised him, but now such happenings were practically routine. Five years of travel had made the world small, especially among the inner circle. Looking at the powdered, painted faces of the aging matrons he was required to entertain, he silently sighed. When first embarking as a scout for his family’s company investments at twenty-three, he was cocksure how the world worked and imagined himself a tireless bon vivant, wrapping up business with time to spare for glittering dalliances in Paris, Lisbon, Barcelona, Berlin, Brussels and Prague. But that naiveté soon faded, replaced by ennui at the endless social fripperies of the landed gentry. There was no escaping the grand dames who controlled means of entry with their codes of social behavior. But entertaining these women and their marriageable daughters was getting old for James, even as he soldiered on, viewing it a necessary drill for securing access to their husbands, the men who controlled the best investments.

Thanking the President and his wife, James departed their company, returning to a circle of ladies where he obligingly laughed at their jokes and commentaries, no matter how boring or banal. In the beginning, he rather enjoyed being their object of desire. The game had its perks. Many a rebellious debutante sought a few notches on her own belt before settling down. And Europeans, he had learned, were much more comfortable with sex than were girls at home. Stateside, he’d brag to his pals about the waves of physical pleasure he enjoyed with European women, without any concern of an emotional wake the next day. For the most part, those women were equal to men in desiring a no-strings tryst. But that, too, had begun to feel like a noose; un-tethered freedom also had its price.

Itching to politely slip away to a local beer hall where the women carried no pretense, he stared in a trance above the sea of dancing heads – when he caught sight of a bobbing nosegay. A round orb of white violets wrapped with a periwinkle ribbon that jolted his memory. “Please excuse me,” he said abruptly to the women surrounding him. “I must attend a request of my mother’s,” knowing full well they could not object to his departure for maternal obligation. Slipping around the various groups stationed at the top of the hall, James worked his way along the mirrors, keeping the floating nosegay always in sight, arriving at the exact moment Celeste reached Gamma.

~

Negotiating her way carefully through the jostling crowd, Celeste kept one eye locked on the cups of punch in her hands, willing them not to spill.

“I didn’t think I could make it, but I did,” she announced, handing a cup to Gamma. Looking up, her face flushed and haloed by tendrils of curls, she found herself staring straight into a pair of narrow, black eyes on a face she somehow recognized.

“Oh, hello,” she said, remembering the man from the hotel, sitting at a small table by the lobby window, watching her. A flutter rippled through her belly. Her eyes grew wider. Her apple cheeks lifted and her lips spread into a smile that walloped James like a punch.

Well practiced in social smiles, James normally could adeptly stretch his lips to perfect warmth on command, no matter what he actually felt. But the sudden rise of heat in his chest prompted an uncharacteristic, open-mouthed, toothy grin.

Turning, Gamma realized it was the same man she’d seen speaking with the President and his wife.

James made a short bow. “Why, hello Mrs. Howe. What a great pleasure to meet you.” Then he turned to Celeste. “And you must be Celeste. Wow. I see where you get your beauty” It was not at all what he intended to say. He knew perfectly well how to properly introduce himself, maintaining the requisite distance. Yet a glance from two sets of identical blue eyes evaporated his manners. Snapping his heels, he returned to protocol.

“Allow me to introduce myself. I am James Austin Meaden the Second of the Gladdenbury, Connecticut Meadens, and I believe our families are neighbors.” He then briefly explained about his brother’s delivery of their telegram and his mother’s request to look out for them.

“So you sent the nosegay?” Gamma guessed.

“Yes.” James was delighted his well-placed clue had worked; no one else at the Ball was carrying a white violet nosegay. He had checked with all the florists.

“Thank you, Mr. Meaden,” Celeste said. “It’s lovely.” She found his angular face and courtly ways immensely exciting and felt a prickling feeling on her palms and the bottoms of her feet.

As if on cue, the orchestra struck up the opening bars of a lilting waltz. Gamma sighed on the first note and looked up, softly singing along, as did many others, filling the room with a hushed choir.

“I dreamed I dwelt in Marble Halls, with vassals and serfs at my side.

And of all assembled within those walls, I was the hope and pride.”

“The Bohemian Girl opera!” James sparked.

“You know?”

“Yes! In New York … I saw a production … oh, ten years ago.”

“The same I saw. You like?”

“Yes, very much, and here we are – in Bohemia’s marble hall!” Exuberance shone on his face as he extended his hand to Celeste. “I must have the honor of dancing this song with the most beautiful woman here!” Before she could answer or even look at Gamma, James swept her off into the circling crowd; her feet barely touching the marble floor.

Sitting on a chair against the mirrored wall, Gamma watched them bob and weave in perfect waltz form around the hall for several dances. She did not like how close he held her, nor the moony haze overtaking Celeste’s expression, but there was nothing to be done except wait – for their return.

Breathing in the sweet freshness of Celeste’s hair, James couldn’t stop smiling. How soft she seemed; nothing yet broken or tarnished. How lithe and surefooted, each step a lighthearted laugh. Gazing into her crushed-crystal-blue eyes, he felt laughter bubble up his throat. When had he ever felt this crazed? He was refreshed, rejuvenated even, by the simple pulse of her fingers in his palm. Not even as a boy had he felt such newness. Had he grown old before growing up? Too much sophistication and not enough dreaming? He couldn’t say. All he could do was wonder why, with all his experience, had he never felt such promise in a woman’s arms or the trembling hush that comes before the first kiss of someone he couldn’t help but love?

As James pulled her closer, Celeste drew in his scent and held her breath. How was she following his lead? Or even standing upright? If not for his firm hold on her back and the brace of his arm, she would have melted into a puddle with each sumptuous whirl. One-two-three, one-two-three, she silently counted to quiet her mind, roiling with questions and feelings. Feelings she never dared dream! Forbidden feelings, pushing against her body, tip to toe. Turning in undulating circles across the floor, the sensations cascaded one to the next: jumping beans in her belly, ripples down her back, tickling up her legs and a small silver bell tinging inside her chest that sounded like Gamma’s copper bracelets. And his gaze! The black, unswerving focus of a matinee idol’s unfettered desire for his leading lady. As the third waltz came to an end, she nestled closer, longing to be deeper in his arms. She lifted her face, grazing her cheek on his chin, tilting up her lips just so, hoping he’d turn his head and …

“Celeste,” James breathed in her ear as the dance was ending. “I could dance with you all night, but we must respect your grandmother.”

She froze for an instant, then dropped her heels to the floor, reluctantly releasing his hand, and walked dutifully before him, returning to where Gamma patiently sat.

For the rest of the evening James stayed by their side, enchanted by Celeste’s face and youthful ways; her giggle and rapt attention contrasted sharply to the cynicism of his regular escorts. Though his friends would certainly chalk up his gusto to Celeste’s tender age, he didn’t care. Her adoring gaze was intoxicating. Why had he never felt it before? Was it the type of girls he’d chosen, or had he lost something inside? In between his turns dancing with Celeste, he sat with Gamma, seizing the opportunity to charm her, as well.

“What brings you to Prague?” he inquired, assuming they were on the Grand Tour of European Capitals.

“Here I was born,” Gamma replied, “On a farm in Bohemian Forest, where my family live for centuries. So I bring Celeste – who is only sixteen – to know her roots.”

James felt chagrined by her caution and his ignorance of their background. Knowing things, in the insurance business, was his family’s stock and trade. “So you actually are the Bohemian girl. When did you immigrate to America?”

“1870,” Gamma replied tersely, not sure how much she trusted this man with her past or her granddaughter’s future. Who could not notice his enchantment or Celeste’s unchecked adoration?

“As a child?”

“Young man, you try to guess my age?”

“No, no, Mrs. Howe, please forgive me. It’s just I know nothing about you or your family beyond the hardware store, and for that you have my sincerest apologies.”

Gamma listened to a few measures of music before answering. “Sixteen. I come to America at 16. My brother, who left Bohemia to be a sailor, return with a marriage proposal for Mr. Howe, in New York City. A decision I am very glad for. But he pass, twenty-six years ago, and my son move us to your town, where Celeste born. But Bohemia is her heritage, too. Much different from your English gentry.”

James instantly understood Gamma’s lines of distinction. Through his years of travel he’d experienced both sides of snobbery’s sharp blade. “Mrs. Howe, would it surprise you to learn our family is not all English? In fact, I’ve been told my great, great grandfather emigrated from this very region.”

Gamma’s eyebrows lifted. “But your face …”

“I know, I know,” James laughed. “Our true heritage has been whittled away by too many marriages to, shall we say, a lesser race?”

Gamma laughed at his bluntness, and James saw a chink in her protective armor.

As the Ball began to wind down, James suggested they take a walk around the castle. “Has she seen Golden Lane?” he asked before turning to Celeste and adding, “Where alchemy was once pursued?”

Celeste’s exuberance cemented his plan.

As they walked slowly up the narrow lane lined with tiny houses along an ancient castle wall, James explained the history to Celeste. “These little houses were built in the 16th century, when this wall was the outside fortress of the castle, as workshops for the king’s craftsmen. But years later, chemists took up residence to discover the recipe, the alchemy, for turning base metal into gold.”

Celeste tried to concentrate on every word James spoke, but his words paled to the jingling in her toes. Here she was, as far from home as she could be, yet walking alongside James Meaden! The eldest son of the family her mother most admired and spoke of with great deference. The very top of society, and not just in Connecticut! While she’d met his youngest brother, Ron, last June at the church social, dancing all night with James was more than her mother would even dare dream, and she couldn’t wait to tell her. Oh, what good fortune! Gamma’s Ball had wrought a knight of her own. Did that make her a princess? Peering through the small, leaded windows in one of the several dozen houses, she shouted to Gamma and James as they strolled up the lane. “There’s a suit of armor in here!” And added to herself, “That must be a sign of good luck.”

Gamma, however, felt something altogether different. Coolness surrounded her heart, raising a flag of caution as she questioned the young man’s objectives. Surely he’d fulfilled his mother’s obligation hours ago. “What bring you to Prague this evening?” she asked.

James’s smile deepened. He felt an odd calm and ease, more than he had in years. “Business,” he answered matter-of-factly.

Gamma matched his tone. “What insurance business you have here?”

“I find investments for securing the company’s profits. Logging forests and mines: copper, coal, tin. Some oil and gas. Irreproducible resources with growing demand.

“At a Poets’ Ball?” Gamma inquired.

“Most certainly. All the city’s prominent people attend, where we meet and make plans to talk business, later.”

Sure she had him, Gamma swiftly served her sword. “Why then leave them to spend your time with us?”

With a jaunty step, James slipped his hands into his trouser pockets, wondering if he should burst out in song and dance like Fred Astaire: Taking A Chance On Love on Golden Lane. Looking in Celeste’s direction and then directly into Gamma’s eyes, he answered with a surety that surprised himself.

“Why, seeking an alchemy of my own, of course.”

¤

Chapter Nine: TRAVELING BLOOD

TRAVELING BLOOD

August 1930

 

The morning after the Ball, Celeste and Gamma sat on their balcony dressed in their robes, eating eggs and ham with famished gusto, when Gamma announced they would stay a few days more. Celeste could not believe her ears.

“And take the airplane to Brussels?”

“Why not!” Gamma declared, raising her teacup in a salute.

“And see Prague with James?”

“Yah. Let’s see what he knows.”

As it turned out, James Meaden knew a lot, particularly about art. Even Gamma was impressed as they toured the churches, museums, side streets and boulevards, where James constantly pointed out one artistic treasure after another in architecture, stained glass, sculpture and painting. He was especially knowledgeable of the art in the many cafes they visited, waxing especially long whenever they came across Art Nouveau. The curving, asymmetrical designs, the arches and floral embellishments enraptured him. By the end of their tour, Gamma had no doubt James was cultured and savvy, but she still wasn’t convinced he had any business with Celeste. She didn’t like how he coddled her, attending her every whim as if she were a new toy. For when the novelty of her beauty and innocence wore off, what would they have? They were too far apart in age and experience for Celeste to be anything more than a passing fancy, and for that reason alone, Gamma kept up her defenses.

Early Saturday morning, exhausted from two days of touring, Gamma and Celeste took a taxi to Kbely Airport, the military base northeast of Prague. The expanse of field was vast and lonely, with a cluster of massive airplane hangers, a single, masonry building with an aviation tower and several frightening-looking airplanes. The scariest one looked like a blunt-nosed trolley car, with two enormous prop engines on either side, all sandwiched between parallel wings above and below the fuselage and strung together by columns and a corset of wires, zig-zagging between the wings.

“How can that fly?” Celeste asked, her eyes as round as Gamma’s.

A small man in a beige jumpsuit approached them. Hearing her comment, he chuckled. “Oh there are bigger and badder planes in the fleet, but don’t worry, that bus is not for you. Mrs. Howe, I presume?”

Gamma nodded.

“You’re our only passengers today,” he continued, nodding to Celeste. “So I came to welcome you myself. I am Josef, Joe, your pilot to Brussels. Follow me and we’ll get you set up.” He plopped their carpet bags on top of their trunk and rolled it across the cement tarmac. Celeste and Gamma followed in reverent silence. Walking toward the monstrous trolley-plane, their fear swelled, as it towered twelve feet over their heads. But rounding its bi-wing, their calm returned as they spied the small, silver, single wing, center engine prop plane. This, they could manage.

Two men waited by the tail to load their luggage while Joe helped Gamma and Celeste up the small steps and duck into the tiny cabin with a tight cockpit for a pilot and co-pilot, and four seats behind it.

As Joe took his seat and began flight preparations, Gamma and Celeste stared out the front window, at the long cement strip in front of them. So long they could not make out its end before the looming mountains. “How to get over?” Gamma said out loud when the engine exploded to life, causing them to yelp, jump in their seats and grab each other’s hand as the plane began rolling down the runway, faster, faster, faster than any thing could ever, should ever go! As the mountain came closer and closer, their fingernails dug in, through their gloves, gouging each other’s hand when, miraculously, off they lifted, swooping up and left, neatly sideswiping the mountain as everything dropped away, looking small, then tiny as they glided through the sky. Gamma and Celeste simultaneously took a deep breath and grinned, astonished. Who could believe it? Then Joe pointed out the Bohemian Mountains up ahead and they began shouting to him, pointing out their farm, the gypsies and everything they loved. The noise of the flight was deafening and the occasional bumpiness terrifying, but the spectacular views were beyond their imagination. Their senses stunned by the changing terrain of mountains to valleys, with hundreds of snaking rivers. They loved every second of flying, except for the landing, which scared the bejesus out of them. With wind gusts wobbling the wings, their stomachs flipped several times before the plane bounced onto the runway and rolled safely to a stop. Looking at each other, they grimaced in disbelief at what they’d just survived.

After collecting their bags and spontaneously hugging Joe good bye, they endured a careening taxi ride to the docks, arriving just in time for the last boarding call of the S.S. Belgenland.

Once they were finally in their stateroom, Celeste and Gamma collapsed on their beds, shuddering with relief. After a few moments, Celeste began to laugh, deep in her belly. As her laugh quickened, she rolled onto her stomach, clutching a pillow.

Gamma chuckled. “At what you laugh?”

“You! Throwing dollar bills at the taxi driver,” Celeste’s words choked out as she doubled over. “‘Faster! Go faster!’ you kept yelling, when our hair was already blowing straight off our heads!”

Gamma’s small ha-ha-has sped up as Celeste added, “And the pilot! Tipping the wing back and forth over the Bohemian Forest, waving to the gypsies. And then you!” she could barely speak between outbursts. “Crossing yourself and praying: As-it-began-so-may-it-end. I thought we were going to die right then and there!”

Gasping for air, Gamma held up one hand. “Me too!”

Celeste rolled off the bed to the floor, nearly shouting: “And won’t Mother be out of her mind when she hears James Austin Meaden the Second escorted us all over Prague for two days. Two days! She’ll be wild! It’s better than she could have planned. Ever!”

The comment instantly halted Gamma’s laughter. Rising from the bed, she drew the trunk latchkey from her pocket. “Enough,” she said sharply. “We unpack now.”

Startled by Gamma’s suddenly grimness, Celeste scrambled to her feet and for the rest of the afternoon dutifully sorted clothes for the voyage, sending out several items for pressing. Finally, they washed away the traces of their mad dash to the ship and dressed for dinner.

~

The first supper on a transatlantic journey demanded extra spit and polish, as it was an introduction to a table of strangers. While Celeste begged to wear her ball gown again, Gamma suggested she save it for the mid-week dance, and Celeste relented. Descending the grand stairwell to the first-class dining room, Gamma and Celeste matched the elegance of their surroundings. Celeste portrayed understated sophistication in an evening skirt, pin-tucked blouse, satin sash and lace collar while Gamma looked resplendent and serene with her white, upswept hair that beautifully contrasted her dark, beaded jacket.

They dined with three couples. One was from Brussels, another from Stockholm, and the third from Chicago. For most of the meal, Celeste listened as the adults talked, but finally the Swedish woman drew her into the conversation.

“What did you enjoy most in Prague?” The woman asked.

Celeste wanted to say “Meeting my neighbor at the Ball,” but refrained, knowing Gamma would not approve. “The Slavin National Cemetery,” she answered.

“A cemetery? How odd. Why is that?’’

“Because of its history. So many poets, artists, musicians and sculptors are buried there, and all their gravestones are unique, some designed by the artist … before they died, I mean.”

The adults smiled at her youthful fumbling and nodded for her to continue.

“When I was there, I felt something I’d not felt before,” Celeste said, then paused, avoiding Gamma’s eye. “Like I am part of something bigger than just myself. That in my blood runs the same possibility, if not as an artist, at least to live artistically, creatively.”

Their dinner companions nodded thoughtfully, impressed by Celeste’s mature perception, but Gamma held her face steady, revealing no expression, knowing Celeste’s words were nearly identical to those spoken by James at the cemetery the day before.

The Brussels man turned to Gamma. “I can hear, in how you speak about it, you love your country very much. Why did you leave?”

Gamma’s face flushed pink, suddenly remembering she’d left the green heart pillow stuffed behind the armoire in Prague. She waved her hand as if swatting away a fly. “Oh, I’ve a bit of traveling blood, I guess. When my brother come home with ticket to America for me, all I thought to say was yes.”

Everyone laughed in agreement about the allure of travel and tasting the world’s adventures. But later that night, as Celeste strolled the deck with Gamma, she sought more.

“Gamma, weren’t you scared when you left the farm?”

Surprised by her sincere tone, Gamma pointed to the deck chairs. Settling in, they stretched their legs in the balmy air and rearranged their skirts. Gamma cleared her throat. “Not scared so much, right then. At first I think only of adventure, and with my brother, what need I fear?”

“So America was always your dream?”

Gamma flinched. She was not ready to tell Celeste the full truth, but she did not want to lie. “My dream? How can farm girl dream so big? I dream of Prague back then, maybe because Aunt Mae. But our storytellers often talk of travel and from that, I get some thirst, too.” Gamma traced her fingers along the braided crown of her hair, remembering the rich worlds woven around the campfires of her youth. Never did she imagine she’d actually see many of the places they described. She laughed softly and reached for Celeste’s hand. “In truth, the boat ride to Dresden, train to Brussels and London freighter was enough for me. After that, I could go home, satisfied. But something niggle inside, to keep me going. Not just my promise. Was a feeling, the one I know mean truth, for me. So I go. In the end: was more adventure than ever I dream.” Gamma paused, hearing the sea wash against the ship’s hull, just as it had on her first transatlantic voyage. “But yes, I feel scared … in the steamer for New York …when Yazi leave me to work the ship.

“What scared you?”

“Everything. The ship’s bottom, many strangers, odd smells, noises. But most I feel scared when I remember was not Yazi I would marry.”

“You thought you were going to marry your brother?”

“No no. But, thinking of what come next, I feel … overwhelmed. Before then, I not think of marriage, not even in my village. I guess I knew someday I marry, but until Yazi come with your grandfather’s proposal, was not in my thought. Sixteen is young for marriage, don’t you think?” Gamma looked up, gauging Celeste’s comprehension.

Celeste couldn’t remember when she didn’t know about Gamma’s arranged marriage, but the enormity of her blind leap of faith never fully struck her until that moment. “How did you do it, Gamma? Travel all that way to marry a stranger?”

Gamma shrugged. “Is not so different from bumping into stranger on street or in shop, no? And since my brother think him good, I say OK.”

“Or at a Ball, far from home,” Celeste added with hopeful eyes.

Gamma looked down at her hands. “I lucky, because my husband did think about it. He knew he want old country woman, like his mother. When he meet Yazi and hear about me, your grandfather say: I think your sister would be good for me. Apples from same barrel often taste alike.” Gamma chuckled.

Celeste didn’t understand. “But you’re not like Uncle Yazi.”

“Why you say?”

“Because Uncle Yazi is wild. He never settled down, never took a wife or raised a family. You did all those things. Some twice,” Celeste said, pointing to herself.

Gamma laughed, stroking the copper bracelets on her arm. “Yah, yah, and maybe I live long enough for third time more.”

Celeste’s eyebrows rose in surprise, then crumpled in worry. “Gamma, I don’t think I want to have children, at least not until I’ve had some adventures of my own.” She leaned forward, hugging her knees. “I sometimes wonder if Mama ever wanted to do or be something other than a wife and mother. You got to see some of the world before you settled down. And a lot more, after, too.”

Her words were music to Gamma’s ears. “What you like to see?”

“Oh, I don’t know. There’s so much. What did you love most?”

As the tea steward rolled his cart to their deck chairs, the image of the London pub came into Gamma’s mind. “Two Earl Grey, please,” she ordered, waiting for his service to complete before answering Celeste. Gazing into her steaming cup, she saw the short, dark-haired man sitting in the corner of the pub, the author of those wonderful stories. “Dickens,” she said aloud, as if she’d been speaking all along.

“Dickens? Where’s that?”

Gamma laughed. “London,” she corrected. “Where I see the book writer: Charles Dickens.” And with a gust, Gamma’s mind returned to the dockside pub sixty years earlier. “Was my first day in London, cold and wet. Yazi march me for hours, showing every sight. So by suppertime, I long to sit,” she began the story, remembering each detail as if it happened yesterday.

Six weeks of travel had swelled her limbs to an achy stiffness. She was so tired she barely noticed the rough surroundings as they walked through a dark alley, across a rickety plank and pushed open a heavy, wooden, windowless door. Crossing the room to the bar, she didn’t smell the oily air from the lamps and cooking grease. Nor notice the stench or ogle of the seamen who turned to admire her smooth brow and long curves. But the bitter aroma from the pint of dark ale served by the barmaid caused her nose to flare. Sipping gingerly, its sharp sweetness surprised her. After a few more sips, the room’s heat enveloped her with sleepiness. That’s when Yazi pointed out Mr. Dickens.

“Bertra, look over there. The author of the stories I sent you.” He nodded to the corner table where an oldish man sat wrapped in an enormous cloak, scribbling in a small tablet. Books were a rarity in her village, so the newspaper clippings Yazi sent home via a traveling friend were as prized as rare seeds for their field. Bertra easily recalled each chapter. “Great Expectations,” she replied. Through those stories, she’d begun to learn English, with her uncle teaching her each word. And she re-read the chapters incessantly until she remembered every character as the author described them and how she’d come to imagine them. How they looked, what they wore and what they might like to eat if they came for supper. Not that she would invite all of them to her table, for some were scoundrels. But to find herself sitting in the same pub with the author of that story was beyond her imaginings.

“How odd,” she said to Yazi. “His characters I know by heart, but never did I think of the writer; yet there he is,” slouched at a small round table in the dank, smoky pub where she stole long glances at him. And odder still, all she could think about was the quality of his cloak, a thick weave of chocolaty gray. With an eye for the drape and weave of fine fabric, she knew his was as prized as any her aunt had shown her in the Prague markets. By the fabric she deduced he must be of good wealth. Why then would he choose to visit such a hovel, she wondered? They had little choice in their evening meal, but he would certainly be welcomed in any of the elegant restaurants her brother pointed out in their day’s walkabout. Yet there he sat, writing away, too clean for the rough-hewn, salty wood surrounding him. She didn’t realize she was staring until Yazi hoarsely whispered:

“Looks poorly, don’t he?”

“More than just poorly,” Bertra raised her voice to be heard over the tavern’s clamor. “Quite sickly, I say.” Even across the room she could see a yellow tinge on his face. Perhaps she’d spoken too loud, for Mr. Dickens raised his eyes, looking in her direction. She ducked, faced the bar and swallowed a mouthful of bitter brew in lieu of biting her tongue. Keeping her lips close together, she asked Yazi in halting English: “Think he often come here?”

The barmaid, a round, red-faced woman of stout weight and height, heard the question as she set down their bowls of sausage and potato mash. No other patron had ever given a fig of notice to Mr. Dickens, and she was protective of his privacy, for his tips were quite handsome. “Comes once or twice weekly, drinks a few pints and makes notes in that small pad he keeps in his vest pocket,” she said curtly, proud of her eye for detail. Nothing in the bar escaped her notice. The scruffy woman looked sharply into Bertra’s eyes. “Speaks to no one and no one speaks to him.”

Bertra nodded politely, not understanding half the barmaid’s brusquely spoken words but certainly the meaning of her sharp tone and shoulder waggle. After the barmaid returned to the kitchen, Bertra snuck another glance. Peeking around her brother’s shoulder, she saw Mr. Dickens hunched over his ale, looking even older, now. He had stopped writing and was staring into the bottom of his glass, appearing quite tired and not at all approachable. Not that she would have considered speaking with him. She barely knew his language. Besides, what could she possibly say to such a learned man? Still, she felt very happy and special to have seen a famous author before boarding the steamer that would take her across the world.

“And only a few months after I come to America, I read in the paper Mr. Dickens pass away. Only 57. I cry hard, as if he were my own blood,” Gamma said, patting her own leg.

At the story’s finish, Celeste hugged her knees tighter. “Gee whiz, Gamma. I sure hope something like that happens to me someday.”

“It will,” Gamma predicted. “If you take time to listen for your right way. Come now. To bed we go.”

~

The next day was sunny and hot. Dressed in loose ship trousers and a light blouse, Celeste spent the morning playing shuffleboard with the Brussels couple. By noon she was hungry for more than lunch. Finding Gamma stretched out on a shady deck chair toward the stern, Celeste plopped alongside her and immediately asked the question that had burned in her brain all morning.

“Gamma, how do you know what’s right?”

“Hmm? What?” Gamma awoke from a doze, her needlepoint canvas dropping to the deck. Celeste automatically picked it up, set it on Gamma’s lap and asked again.

“Last night, you talked about listening for my right way. But how will I know, for sure, what’s right?”

Still half asleep, Gamma shifted in her chair, adjusting her jacket and patting her hair. “About what?”

Celeste swiveled back and forth, fidgeting her hands. “I think you and Mama see the world differently,” she blurted. “For Mama, teas and cotillions are how I should prepare for my future. I like them just fine, but I also like the things we do together, like the shelter in Hartford. I love serving the meals and sorting the clothes. It makes me feel good, inside. And the people I’ve met there, even though they’re poor, are all so nice. Nicer than some of Mama’s friends and my schoolmates.” Celeste paused, still trying to understand what she was asking. It was just a feeling, and Gamma always helped sort out her feelings when she wasn’t clear.

“You mean, what’s right for you?” Gamma guessed.

Celeste’s eyes brightened. “Yes! It’s confusing to know sometimes. When you left the farm, how did you know it would work out alright?”

Gamma’s face clouded, recalling a searing memory which never went away, no matter how much time had passed. “Was not like that …” she began, then quickly stopped. It was not yet right to tell why she could not stay at the farm. Still too close to sweet memories just made. “I not know it would work out right, but I knew was right time to leave. So I go. From one step we can’t know what turns life will take, and we can only take one step at a time. So I step to what felt most right, right then.” Gamma said with a soft shrug of her shoulders.

Celeste thought about her words, chewing her inner lip, then sighed. “It’s so confusing. Papa says the store is my birthright. He said just because I’m a girl doesn’t mean I can’t run the store. He said he wants me to have it, when I’m ready. But Mama says it’s not a woman’s place. She said I’m best suited to marry well and tend to my husband and children. She said I can do the most good for the world, there.” Celeste looked earnestly at her grandmother, hoping for a clue as to what she should think, but Gamma’s face revealed nothing. Shaking her head, she continued: “I like that idea – children and all – just as much as I like the idea of taking over Papa’s store. But then I think of Ede, who loves painting with her whole heart and I wonder why I don’t have something like that.”

“Like what?” Gamma asked, even though she knew.

“An obvious talent.” Celeste said, quoting the man’s praise of Ede at the art show. “Something you love so much it haunts you.”

A smile crept along Gamma’s lips. “You make my heart glad.”

Celeste perked up, smiling. “Why?”

“Already you know most important, even if you don’t yet understand.”

Celeste leaned in to hear her grandmother’s soft voice.

“Life is confusing, but not so mysterious. Each of us are given different talents, interests. Ede’s art talent is good, and will lead to places she must go. You have different path, but just as special. You know what I say, to Ede, to you, to anyone who ask: pay attention to what shows up, honor what beckons and listen to your heart voice. Is all you need to find your path, what you want most, even when you don’t know it; especially when you don’t know it. This, I can promise.”

It was a statement Celeste had heard Gamma say many times, but she still didn’t understand what it meant. She had no idea what her life should be, could be or might become. “But shouldn’t I have a notion about it already? Could I have missed the clues?”

“Dítĕ, you only sixteen …”

“Seventeen in two weeks.”

Gamma took Celeste’s hand. “Yah. Seventeen and so beautiful, already a man of twenty-eight want you to mother his babies.”

Celeste blushed but did not pull away, staring into Gamma’s eyes.

“Yah. I see how he look at you. I only wish, not so soon.”

Celeste pulled back. “But you said pay attention to what shows up and he did.”

“Is true! But what about the beckon? Tell me: how you feel?” Gamma patted the air in front of Celeste’s chest. “In your heart? What truth is speaking?”

Celeste blinked several times, her face mixed with hope and confusion. Dancing with James and touring the city had been a dizzy whirl. He was so kind, so gentlemanly. He treated her as a lady, not a child: asking her opinion, holding her chair, ordering from the menu. In his presence, she felt more grown up than ever before, but now she wasn’t sure it was all real. Something niggled inside, creating a gap she wasn’t sure how to fill. Finally she answered. “I’m not sure.”

Tapping Celeste’s hand, Gamma leaned back in her chair, straightened her blanket and closed her eyes: “And how could you yet? Maybe he be right, but before that come, maybe you have a little travelin’ blood to satisfy” She rolled her head to look directly into Celeste’s eyes. “Being not sure is good for now, I think. Wait, and trust, until is more clear.”